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RECOVERD ANXIETY SUFFERER.

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Hi All.

Im Bonnie. I was on this site around 4 years ago. With all that you all talk about. Symptoms symptoms. I was house bound. I was svared if the bathroom. I cld not have lights on at night. During the day i wore sunglasses indoors. This is a list of my then anxiety . Baicaly stress symptoms is all they are. It comes when our lives have been atress full or events that have caused us stress. The brain says enough is enough. Thats where the thoughts start. That mean nothing. They are a result if a stressed mind for to long. But you keep adding stress to already a stressed mind and worrying. What is this symptom. There it is again. Im shaking . Im sweating. My heart is racing. My eyes are not right. Dizzy. Double vision. Vertigo. Electric shocks in my head. Muscle spasms. Panic attacks. And many many more. I suffered all daily. When the botttom line is. Nerves are shot to bits. And have become very sensative to sound. The washing machine maybe. The dog barking . A knock on the door. Heart would race with thay one and hide. My elder lived with me during my two yr suffering. And was a great support. But i no i was not easy to live with at the time.

What im saying people is. Get out of yr way. Start to give yr brain a rest that it si needs and is crying out for. Stop worrying and picking daily at yr symptoms. Iccupy yr mind with things you like to do. Do a list the night before . Start very small. And fir short times. Create a routine a small one maybe just read a paragraph of a book. Get a bath. Plan yr tea and lunch. Whatever you can manage . Give yr mind a rest from worrying. Be kind to yrself. Stop questioning yr symptoms. They will go away if you stop giving yrself more worry. Yr body and mind wants a rest . I have been werl and bk at work since 2014.

All the best people

Bonnie x

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Agora1

Dearest Bonnieann, Thank you ever so much for sharing your journey with us.

I was very moved by reading each and every word you wrote. Because I was just

like you. Housebound for 5 years, nervous system shot. experienced the same symptoms

that you did. I was my own worst enemy. I have tears of happiness right now for you.

This is what this forum is all about. Not only hearing about the struggles of each day but

hearing about those of us who have taken back control of our lives.

Sending you Peace & Calm from my heart. :) xx

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Bonnieann in reply to Agora1

Thank you Agora. Im very pleaded you are doing well. We are certainly our worst enemys. And it be due to us each day with the daily questioning and analazing that we do that keeps the stress symptoms going. And stops our re overy.

There was a large group of us on hete in 2013/2014, we became friends. The support was brilliant for each other.

Take care Agora

Bonnie

Ps

If you search Whywhy. Wintet. Bonnie. Jeffju. Mimi . On here. Can see some posts from us back then. X

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Ragdoll15 in reply to Bonnieann

Thank you for your words of encouragement. They came at just the right time for me today and have given me hope for the future. I am suffering all the symptom you mention plus feeling faint all the time. Welcome done for conquering your fears.

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Bonnieann in reply to Ragdoll15

Hi ward

Ignore yr thoughts. Thet say cant do this. Cant do that. Say . Oh yes i can. Remove fear. Rem symptoms are result of stress alot of it. Anxiety is stress symptoms . Rem if whole body is stressed so is the mind. Thats where its starts . Ignore all unwanted strange thoughts. That come with such force . They are not true. Just a stressed mind.

I also felt faint a lot. Another sensation was like something was creeping up my legs all the way up. Used to scare me half to death. They are all nothing. They will go. If you have no routine in the day. Start one. It can be small. Breakfast. Read a page of book. Another good one us colouring. I know it seems silly. But its good to give mind a rest. Even if do it once a day for a short tine. 10mins and build from there to half hr. All in little steps.

Bonnie

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Ragdoll15 in reply to Bonnieann

Thank you Bonnie I am going to try with small things like you say. I love craft and making cards, but this last couple of years I could not relax to do it and it really upsets me. I feel like I am just existing rather than living. Maybe I will try the cards tomorrow.

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Bonnieann in reply to Ragdoll15

Ward

You want relax to start with. Let the stress symotoms carry on. But do it. The relaxing with come bk the more you do. Dont do alot. Do say 10mins only. Ignore the thoughts of i cant. Say i can and will . Just say once and know more. And get on with the 10mins. Get a pad or paper and wright. Tomorrows tasks. The put the craft at a rough time that you will do it . And do as near as to the time. Do this with yr craft every day. Can do at different time of day if want. This will create a small routine for yr mind. If lapse one day. Dont worry. Start again next day. And you will find anxiety will get less after a week or so and you will find you will be able to increase how long you do it for. But little small regular steps with anything is key. Pick something else for tomorrow at a different time. Cld be after lunch for one. And craft in morning. It dont matter how. Its the doing that will count. Be patient with yrself when doing this. I wld be shaking and sweating if i tried to do anything. But persevere. Relax the best you can. Let symptoms carry on. Dont rush yr 10min activitys. No matter what symproms you get. Take time finish when yr ready to. But dont do to much .

Bonnie

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Ragdoll15 in reply to Bonnieann

Thanks

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Agora1 in reply to Bonnieann

Thanks again Bonnie. I came on in 2015, so I must have just

missed you. Take care. Keep in touch. xx

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art62grammie in reply to Agora1

Agora1, how are you? I think of you so much. Like every day. I sure wish you the best. You seem so kind and have suffered a lot.

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Bonnieann in reply to art62grammie

Hi Agora

Im ok thankyou. I have been recovered since the end of 2014.

Other than flu at the mo. Life if very good.

How are you doing ?

Bonnie

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Agora1 in reply to art62grammie

Art62grammie, thank you for your best wishes. Hopefully my daughter will

see the light one day. Meanwhile taking it day by day and not projecting

down the road. She may well surprise me.

Love and my best to you as well. Agora1 xx

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Elfje

Thank you bonnie

But I do all off it and still the attacks stay

So again too my doc yesterday now again. I must taken a benzo

I have no other choice

But thx for you words 💗

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Bonnieann in reply to Elfje

Hi Elfji

I cant advise you either way on meds. I dont no the strngth of yr anxiety. Carry on with a routine. If can slowely cut med down with yr doctors advice. But while doing that to keep busy. Do a diary the night before. If you persever it will come. Benz are nit good just a plaster. Talk to yr doc. Ser if they are increasing yr anxiety. If been taking them a while look at side effects with yr doc. Maybe discuss the nature of them and if they are just acting as a sedative. But speak to yr doc.

Bonnie

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Elfje in reply to Bonnieann

I taken 1mg Xanax morning and afthernoon nothing

But than it start the nights are not ok

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Bonnieann in reply to Elfje

Do you have mp3 player. Of earphones for mobile. Look at headspace for relaxing sleep apps. Try Change routine at night. Change bedroom around. Read a little. Create a different routine for the evenings. Bath with candles for you. Dont try to sleep .it will happen. Concentrat just on breath in and out of nose. Ignore everything around you and anxiety.

Bonnie

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Elfje in reply to Bonnieann

Bonnie no I did everything I have a anxietydisorder and ADHD at night heavy panic attacks.

Sorry but it's really heavy

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Bonnieann in reply to Elfje

ok Eifje

Hope things get better for you in the future. And then you may be able to to introduce activitys for yrself. Keep chin up 😊

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Elfje in reply to Bonnieann

Thank you 💗now do my job

Work the do 😊

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Delzek

Good to hear a success story, congratulations Bonnie, I almost always say to others "little steps " it works for me ,I have also said it may not work for everyone. I really am happy for you, I have on a couple of occasions thought I had sorted my ptsd/anxiety problems out,but then something always happens to send me right back to the start again. I think anxiety and other mental health issues are affected by physical ailments or people and society who push negativity in your path, good luck for the future all the best Derek

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Bonnieann in reply to Delzek

Hi Delzek.

Maybe have a look at what happens to and why it sends you back. ?. Thoughts play a big part in anxiety. If no underlined medical issues going on . There are many medical conditions that can cause anxiety and do. If anxiety has come to you purley from a build up of life events of endless stress over a long period of time. And no underlined medical conditions. And this has been clarrified by doctors. That person can make steps to get there life back. CBT is very good. It teaches how to look at things from a different perspective. I dont believe that people are responsible for putting negativity in out paths. It is how we see that and process it. And what is our belief of that .

Im am glad you are doing well. You will get they. Keep positive thinking . Out subconsous is like a sponge it sucks up information we feed it. If we are going to feed ourselfs negativty all day long. It will condition to that. Positive statments to ourselves is key.

Bonnie

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Delzek in reply to Bonnieann

Hi Bonnieann, I do have medical reasons, I have PTSD caused by a trauma I had some time ago ,I lost a few years of my memory due to this. I get frustrated because others appear to know a lot more about me than I do. I also have Diverticulitis and suspected Chrones, a few TIA's and an old spinal fracture that has now caused arthritis! My medical history is complex to say the least, But I do believe I am starting to handle things better,and I believe positive thinking will bring me better results than seeing counsellors I have to do this myself.

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Bonnieann in reply to Delzek

Yes can see where yr aniexty comes from. As you say you have underlinded medical conditions. You can only do what you think is best for you. Positive thinking will help you. Not cure yr medical condtions as we know. But to help you cope and be happier in yr self. We all deal with things in different ways. I hope yr conditions improve for you in the future and therfore lessons the anxiety that is caused by them.

Take care

Bonnie

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art62grammie in reply to Delzek

I believe in you. It sounds that you are on the right path. I too had childhood trauma. I had repressed memories for 50 years. My journey to recover from forty years of Anorexia (which was caused by trauma). The journey has not been easy. It was a long rough ride. Recently I have recovered. It will daily be a process to stay recovered. I will do just that. My mind has finally healed from trauma. My mind and body have healed from dying with Anorexia. You stay strong and be positive. I know that I would have never made it with recovery without professional help. Therapist and mental doctors. Anorexia is complex. I tried for years to recover on my own. The enemy is too strong. It was like a roaring lion. I now am the lion and the illness is a small grain of black pepper. I am much stronger than it. I won the war. I will never be defeated again. Keep fighting. You take care of you and believe in you. When we have setbacks. I do as well. It only makes us stronger. The ability to fight for peace within is power. It is our inner strength and we are much stronger than the enemy.

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Arlene99

Hi Bonnieann....thank u so much for sharing ur story with us, I think I'm slowly getting there, I have good days & then a few bad days. But it's so uplifting to hear that u gave finally conquered this beast that anxiety is. Wishing u all the very best for the future xx

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Bonnieann in reply to Arlene99

Hi Arlene.

Its lovely to here you are on the road back. Dont worry about setback days . Just keep a little diary if daily thoyghts and activitys. You then may see why the setbacks come eventually

Bonnie

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Amrinlama

You say my words you are the man who had given the best inspiration

Thx mate

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lofeoutthere

Thanks for this post! I’ve been struggling something fierce for a year now. Did you ever have horrible brain feeling when out in public? It’s hard to explain but it’s almist as if my brain feels fuzzy dizzy and off feeling.

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Bonnieann in reply to lofeoutthere

Hello

Yes i did. I also had electric like shocks to my head regular. Dont worry. Try not to pay some much attention to it. Its just another stress symptom. Assuming you have spoken to docs. And nothing medically wrong. It does not sound like there is. What you need to remember. Our nerves are all over our body. And if brain stressed the whole of body is effected. I also had like a creeping sensation that would go up my legs and on the top of my head. If all well and no underlined issues causeing anxiety then it will pass in time when yr nerves have recovered. Try not to adf stress onto a already stressed body and mind . And all will recover slowely. Try to relax. Try to focus on little things you enjoy.

Bonnie

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lofeoutthere in reply to Bonnieann

Thank you!

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art62grammie

I am new here. I joined 3 months ago. I say congrats to anyone who can defeat the enemy. The war with the mind. I have struggled to recover from Anorexia of 40 years. I have just recently recovered. I have PTSD from childhood. That is the reason that I became ill at 14. I am 56 now and free. I have been in the dark hole for all those years. I won. Anorexia nor Ptsd can take me again. Daily I recover. I only get stronger. So glad for you and anyone who can conquer depression. I am proud of myself even. I fought and I won. Thank you. I hope each person who struggles with depression wins. Never give up. It may have taken me 56 years to accomplish it. There is no age limit to recovery. I soar like the eagle in the wind. I have broken free from the chains that had once bound me. I have won. LOve each one of you. Please stand up and conquer the war of depression. I will do anything in the way of talking to help any of you. Love yourself. We each one has self-worth. It took 56 years to find mine. That is something that no one ever takes from me. It is mine.

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autumnthebrat2

Wow, I freaked from my double vision and tingly nerves, cold feet, tight facial muscles and neck. A billion other symptoms. Nice to hear u made it out of this nightmare. Still trying, I hope I make it.

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art62grammie in reply to autumnthebrat2

Just keeping fighting. There is hope for each one of us. We have to believe in ourselves. Support from others is a big plus for recovery. It took me 56 years but I won. I sure hope that it does not take others as long as it did me. I am so happy for those who win the war. We are all survivors of abuse and painful suffering. Depression is no fun. Remember no matter how long we have been in the dark hole. It is well worth the fight to climb out. There is no age limit to find happiness. This is my first and I am not a spring chicken. LOL!

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Beevee

“Get out of the way of yourself.” That is so true. In other words, it’s about allowing yourself to think and feel ANYTHING and doing absolutely NOTNING to change things and making your life bigger than anxiety.

I’ve been banging the ACCEPTANCE drum on this forum for quite a while so it’s always refreshing to hear from others who have recovered. It’s not a method or technique, it is all about developing the right attitude and disrespecting the symptoms which are completely harmless. Once fear is taken out of the equation, recovery is inevitable.

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lofeoutthere

Can you explain how you felt with lights and sounds? Couldn’t have lights on during the day?

I’m still struggling being out in public with bright lights. Makes my brain feel ljke it’s going to seize, I will die, I can’t concentrate it’s a very uncomfortable overwhelming feeling. Then when I get home from say being out for an hour I’m exhausted. From the second I wake up until I go to sleep I’m worrying and having weird brain feelings, head feels heavy and drugged all the time too.

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Maxyz3

Good to hear you kicked worry and fear to the curb! I am so happy you got your life back and give us all hope for recovery..god bless you and a big hug!

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