The last few days, I have been Journaling my thoughts and have gotten to the root causes of my worry and anxiety. I've always been a worrier, but the crippling anxiety that has me obsessing over every little thing is relatively new to me. This is a condensed version of the last two years of my life..my mother passed unexpectedly in fall of 2016, my dog fractured his spine at doggy day care in the same time period, which required 2 spinal surgeries. The 2nd surgery left him unable to walk, so we had rehab for a year. During this time he needed another surgery to pull a few teeth. My job is incredibly stressful, as I'm overloaded and am the only one in my company who knows how to do what I do, so I can't even ask for help. This has been non-stop for 2 years, and I have to ask myself how could this NOT cause me anxiety? I feel my anxiety is a pretty normal, considering. What needs to change is my response to it, so I'm going to keep Journaling and exercising since these things seem to help. I'm also grateful for this site, because anxiety can be a very lonely place. My husband tries to understand, but honestly I get on my own nerves so I try not to bother him with it. He is great with support.
The good news is that I'm learning to not obsess over small things. I've been counting my blessings, which far outnumber the bad stuff. I look forward to feeling more like myself and spending more time with family and hobbies.
I do hope everyone has a Merry Christmas with minimal stress, and a New Year full of possibilities!