Hi I'm back again, and the best thing I know to do is to copy and paste the message I sent my boyfriend.
"I'm getting anxious because around this time last year is when it got really bad, and I know I've come a really long way from then but it's just weighing my brain and it's messing my with my head, and I just want to sleep so bad. I don't want it to come back I want to be normal and just live normal. And I'm starting to get sick to my stomach because of it again, I just feel like I'm in d constant cell. And I try really hard to get out but as soon as I get my key in and twist it it gets slapped out of my hand and it's all over again. And I'm just so tired. I was getting better and I just have to keep starting over. I literally have no more energy in my body and I'm afraid of everything. It's just like a constant replay, alone in my room again, not talking to anyone, I hate it so much I can't even begin to explain it's like ptsd or something I hate this"