This is my first post, Have spent some time reading up on other posts so decided to introduce myself.
I am 27 and have struggled with anxiety my whole life, had OCD as a child but this gradually got better. I have suffered with health anxiety for a long time now and I am currently undergoing investigations for palpitations and chest pain, I am really hoping this is just anxiety but my body feels like its more.
All started with a visit to A&E for chest pain in November, My D-Dimer was extremely high so a Blood clot on the lungs was suspected but ruled out after a CT scan and since that its all gone down hill. I am constantly diagnosing myself with these dangerous heart conditions such as Cardiomyopathy or Brugada syndrome. I always think the worst and my heart rate is like always beating over 100 BPM lately which I think is stress. I literally spend too much time googling heart conditions, the cardiologist I am under was like are you a training doctor lol, I thought no sir just a hypochondriac.
Take today for example I went for a cardiac stress test and When I walk in the room its 100 Beats per minute then as soon as the doctors come in and more it shoots up to 130 with fear, I am there picturing monkeys and beaches saying calm down but my body Is in overdrive. Then during my echocardiogram when I heard the heart beat I heard bubbles and thought OMG I must have a murmur.
I constantly fear for my loved ones, If my partner feels sick and tells me I start to feel sick, nauseated, bowels go weak and I fear the worst that he has sepsis, If he has a bit of chest pain I brace myself for CPR. If my mum has a cough I think it may be cancer, and find myself crying at the thought.
My anxiety is getting worse so I have signed up for Cognitive behavioural therapy .I just wanted to reach out to people who relate to this and can understand those mad feelings. I am thinking about pregnancy and I wonder how us anxiety sufferers cope with these situations, I kind of feel like I may be in the emergency department every time the baby kicks.
I know there are people on here worse of and I really feel terrible when Ii read how much suffering they go through, I am trying to fight my anxiety its not easy. xx