I'm writing this for any advice for those who may have felt similar and just to put a voice to what is consuming my mind.
I thought I was getting a handle on everything (I have had anxiety and depression most of my life to varying degrees) and my anxiety was actually starting to reduce for the first time in months but I seem to have relapsed (which is also antagonising my depression). This hasn't been helped by being involved in a small accident at weekend.
I have done the ring around on a lot of the physical symptoms, I've been to the cardiologist because of palpations, had chest xrays for the shortness of breath, all back fine, so now the doctors think everything is associated with my mental state! I am currently in counselling but don't think it's going so well so looking at changing that.
I literally cannot stop worrying about anything and everything, I am also constantly replaying all of the bad things I have done in my life. I can't seem to find a quiet spot to centre myself that it's literally making me feel sick. I hate that I have bad mental health and feel like I just only ever effect everything badly as stuff just seems to go wrong and I make stupid choices.
Thanks for listening. Hope everyone has good days.