Having hard time controlling my anxiety. I'm going to moms house and we're going to,two lakes to float on air mattresses. Sounds like quite a lot of fun so whay the anxiety??? I just got a swimsuit and I look like,a beached whale. I don't care if I mention my weight and I weigh 218 lbs. Yikes!! I haven really found anyone as fat as I am. Ppl here in utah are super skinn6 and in shape that's why my anxiety is so high. Plus the weight is on my upper legs and I'm so embarrassed. Gotta go cause sleeping pills are kicking in!