Almost convinced I will fall asleep and not wake up

[The_Anxiety_War]

I've had this thought for a week and can't seem to accept it despite waking up every morning. Every night feels more convincing than the last, that once I go to sleep I won't wake up and/or die...its like the way I feel now...that since I'm thinking that I'll fall asleep and not wake up, it could happen..like my brain will follow my thoughts or something...sleeping has become so difficult and scary when it should be something I look forward to like I used to..whenever I get tired I get super anxious and scared, as if I'm living my final moments...i just don't know how to deal with it...the more happy I get with being alive the more scary this thought feels...im not ready to die yet I'm only 19...ive accepted all the other thoughts I've gotten in the past but I can't shake this one..im not on any medications but I'm scared to take them anyway..can someone relate with me and give me advice?...so scared to fall asleep tonight...every night the fear grows stronger...

[Icanbeathis2016]

Hello my dear. I know exactly how you feel. I'm 36 and I have had these same fears. In fact Im still learning to deal with my fear of death. When my anxiety first came on me hard in 2016, it first happened in 2015 but in 2016 is when it bacame more physical symptoms and really bad intrusive thoughts I feared going to sleep because i kept thinking i will not wake up. I developed insomnia because of it. My sleep was bad ever since. I would get so scared soon as night came because i knew i had to face my thoughts of sleep. So basically for going on 3 years my sleep has been off. But I understand EXACTLY how you are thinking. The best thing to do for now is either sleep around family for now or sleep during the day until the intense feeling of fear finally calms down. To a point where you wont be so afraid to go to sleep. It took me a long while to get to that poiny. I still get scared from time to time But I can definitely say its a big difference in me not being as afraid to go to sleep. I actually sometimes look forward to bed to try to get rest even though I still dont get the good rest I want but I still actually just want to go to go to bed(sometimes). But I wish you thee best through this as I see you are a young adult and these are the years where most people live more free and fearless like I once was. But Im now working to get that back. I hope this helps you to see you are not alone. Try listening to something at night when you get ready for bed. Something will get your focus to listen and tune in.