It really feels like no matter how hard I try nothing ever gets better. I work really hard towards my anxieties and how to combat them on a daily basis, and it has been working. I constantly work on myself and improve on things I can control and everything around me feels like it’s crumbling apart. I feel trapped in my own circumstances and things that are out of my control are dictating my life. I’ve had so much bad luck this year and family problems and bad luck its constantly bringing me down. I don’t even feel real sometimes, time is just morphing together and I can’t tell one day from another anymore. No matter how positive I am or how good I am at combat any negative experience in my life nothing seems to get better, and moving forward with anything seems impossible.