Almost attack right now.

[Mindfulness4]

I woke up today fine but I knew anxiety was on the back of my mind but consciously just kind of ignored it and let it be.

I first notice my fatigue and weird dizzy, almost faint like symptoms.

As I was leaving my house I saw my neighbors dog by itself so I went to knock on my neighbors door to take him in. As iw as crossing the street I just notice these crazy fatigue and faint like symptoms. Just typing this is getting me scared. When I noticed that I thought gosh what could this be? can't be just anxiety!

But of course I read the worry cure book and the author talks about thats a classic thing of anxiety, so I kinda have a moment of relief and keep it moving but these symptoms are here to stay. As I drive not work I'm thinking - where can I escape (even though I know I shouldn't do this but its just natural it comes with the fear) who can I call - is my dad at work yet? I need to run to him or my brother.

I get out of my car ask my dad where he is and he said its his day off (he lives far from me and we see each other at work). My luck. My panic goes up. I feel fatigued, faint like, up tight, gas, emotional and WORST OF ALL my breathing! Im terrified of how horrible my breathing gets. The worst suffocating feeling that makes me always want to call 911 because I feel like I will die right there from suffocation because it also gets hard for me to talk and say full sentences. I gets hard to even say one word! (yes I went to doctor and get testing they say nothing). I keep thinking then, who is gonna save me if something happens? It will be too late and ill suffer a horrible death. Doubt comes to my mind and right now, I'm feeling every symptoms and extreme fear. I wanna cry, I just want someone next to me.

Watch me in like 20 minutes I'm gonna be like "shopping anyone?"

this is terrible. I have the butterflies in my chest with the breathing at the same time. UGH! Its so hard not to call 911.

[Thissucks562]

I smiled reading this. I am not happy that you are feeling this, because I know exactly how you feel. I am smiling because even when I know what I feel is anxiety and that I am not alone, its always reassuring to know someone is out there and can relate. I try to call someone that talks a lot lol that way I focus on their words and not the anxiety. I need to get back to working out and resting because I know it helps out. I also pray about it before anything and that always gives me peace of mind. I hope you are feeling better. I know this is a horrible and debilitating feeling but you can handle this. Try to get a stone or something you can rub or even a stress ball so that when you feel this going on you squeeze the ball or rub the stone and focus on that feeling rather than the anxiety.

[Mindfulness4 in reply to Thissucks562]

I know exactly what you mean by smiling.I come through here and smile all the time just to know I'm not the one. I literally feel 100% right now. Its crazy!

[Mindfulness4 in reply to Mindfulness4]

not the only one**

[Thissucks562]

Yes! I come on here when I feel the most anxious. I'm glad you feel better.