Over the last 3 weeks I've had debilitating anxiety which has left me resting in my bedroom every day especially the last two weeks. It's also put me off eating properly so I'm just grazing throughout the day and generally feeling very tired and weak. I've had bad nausea during this anxiety.
When the anxiety hit badly 2 weeks ago I noticed that I was struggling to go downstairs because every time I did the nausea was severe my legs would shake, I'd feel really really sick, my ears would ring or hiss and my head would feel like it would explode from the pressure and I would feel dizzy like I quickly had to get back to my bed. It made me scared to go downstairs so for a week I barely went down the stairs because every time I tried I had those awful symptoms. That's when hubby had to take over and do all the washing and cooking because I could not stay downstairs long enough to do anything due to how severe the symptoms were when I went downstairs.
I didn't feel great this weekend I felt very weak and fatigued and even just walking around upstairs to the bathroom or just to sit in my daughter's room I'd feel sick and drained. I spoke to my husband about it and he said well you know you are only grazing you're not eating proper meals, you're always anxious, you're bound to be fatigued and weak it's to be expected. This weekend I felt really really sick and just so drained that like I say even a trip to the bathroom took it out of me and I had to rest a lot because I was so weak and fatigued.
I went went downstairs yesterday afternoon to make a drink and when I did I felt extremely sick, my legs was shaking with weakness and anxiety, I tried to do some washing and my heart was racing, I felt really really sick, my face went red hot, my ears were hissing with pressure and I just quickly got my drink and ran back up the stairs. I lay down and my face was red hot and a panic attack was trying to hit like it used to every time I went downstairs. I felt my head and ears would explode with the pressure Sensation so I took my blood pressure and it was really high so I guess that was just due to the anxiety. My heart was racing and I just felt so ill and I just lay down and cried because I felt so bad just going downstairs to my kitchen.
I'm worried that's not at all normal and it's giving me a big fright because last week I had started to go downstairs during the day to get drinks and snacks when I was on my own and even put some washing in machine and I wasn't having such a bad reaction anymore. So. I hoped I was making progress, where is now that reaction yesterday was probably the worst I've ever had going downstairs and it's upset me.
It's scaring me that that's not normal that anxiety cannot make you feel that it'll just pottering about your own house. If I'm lying on my bed still then I can be ok and I can relax the moment I sit up I start to feel heavy headed and weak and very sick. When I think of going downstairs and spending time with my family I feel sick to my stomach, shaky red hot in the face my heart races and I just generally feel ghastly. So I forced myself downstairs to get a drink and a snack and do some washing and then that happened. I don't know why panic when I do things like that but I thought it was getting better going downstairs but for some reason again I had a very bad reaction to going downstairs and I'm worried that that can't be anxiety. The nausea was so severe, my ears were hissing, my face was red hot, my heart was racing my legs were shaking and I felt it any moment I just collapse from how bad I was feeling. I just don't know if that's normal and it's giving me a bigger fright and I thought things were getting better pottering around the house.
I have been resting a lot this weekend because I have been feeling very sick since the nausea hit on Thursday night but I didn't realise I'd have such a bad reaction to going downstairs. It's made me feel that I'll never recover, and I'll never be able to be with my family again, I'll never be able to just sit down stairs with family again, do the washing or make a meal for my family because surely having symptoms that bad is not normal. Why would I feel that bad just going downstairs to do a couple of chores and make it drink I was downstairs about 10 minutes and I feel absolutely terrible for it. This is what's been happening the last few weeks. I go downstairs,. The nausea kicks in then all those strong sensations hit and I have to lie down. I feel so cold, my legs are weak and shaky, my ears and head hiss with pressure, my face goes red hot, heart races and I feel at any moment I will drop to the ground or be sick. It's awful. My blood pressure was sky high when I Sat down upstairs after it.
I'm just so afraid why that happens. Why can't I just be able to go downstairs without that hitting so bad. I do feel weak and drained so I think that and the nausea trigger me to feel so bad. It's scaring me.so much 😢😢😢 that's what triggered my panic 2 weeks ago and why I ended up too afraid to go downstairs as panic would hit hard like a flush to the face and I'd panic for hours after on my bed. Why? 😢😢
I woke today with severe dread, eveey day I wake with this dread for the day ahead because I can't just do normal things like sit downstairs, go down to cook a meal, do the normal things I was doing. I feel dread and sick every morning. I feel sick now thinking about this and how awful yesterday was and it's because I'm scared it's not normal to feel how I do. Utterly repulsed to my stomach every day and unable to function. Is it normal? Please can someone reassure me anxiety can cause how I feel? My husband says I'm.getting stronger and improving over the last week but I csnt see that at all. I'm unable to even function around my house and feel im letting my whole family down. Thus severe nausea and dread to my stomach makes me feel so ill. It's horrible.
Thank you if you got this far. I apologise it's so long.