It wont stop

[shrs3]

Im really scared. My thoughts of existence and are we really existing, ceasing to exist, death, they are all soo strong right now. I cant stop thinking them. Its been 5 days non stop. Im freaking the fuck out panicking. It seems to always be worse in the morning. But shit i really need this to stop. I cant function. Or get out of this thought process. Its driving me mad.

[4myMomAVB]

What about checking yourself in to an in-patient facility? Is that an option for you?

[shrs3 in reply to 4myMomAVB]

I really really want to. I'm just overcome with an overwheleming fear and since I cant leave my house ( I havent for 4 weeks now), its hard for me to get help from therapists or anyone else. And no one else in my family gets these thoughts

[Hidden]

My mum always says when your times up your times up so need to worry about it and live life in the now and make the most of the time we have now. It helped me a lot when I had fears about death I don’t worry about it anymore as I won’t know I’ve died when it does happen one day. It’s the unknown which is a common thing. It sucks you feel like this as I know you can’t live a normal life. Maybe get a therapist or check into somewhere for help.

[shrs3 in reply to Hidden]

Yea I have a therapist. Really my challenge is that I'm too afraid to leave my house. So I havent been able to really talk to her. I always wanted to check in somewhere for help I just dont know of any places and since I cant leave the house that makes it hard to lol

[Hidden in reply to shrs3]

Can’t you get therapists that come to your house as I know some do to give more of a comfort zone.

[shrs3 in reply to Hidden]

Ive been trying to look into that but i havent found any luck. If you know of anyone in michigan lol that would be great.

[Caseyjunio in reply to shrs3]

The changes to your life is just one door away. Take the first step, try walking round the yard, start going further day by day until you’re comfortable. Really wish you well !

[Caseyjunio]

You must get out and at least take a stroll, get one Friend, just go out, you’ll feel better. I had this feeling too but previously and am well now. Get your mind busy with other things rather than being at home where your mind starts to run wild with with things that are not reality.

[shrs3 in reply to Caseyjunio]

Yea I've been trying to get out really hard. I went for a walk around the block with a friend yesterday. When i go outside I just feel super unreal and so do my surroundings and like i just keep fixating on that. Its just been gradually getting worse and worse the past 4 or so months and I really dont know why but this past week its hit an all time low. i'm just fixated on it and these thoughts 24/7 like i cant get distracted from it for 1 minute.

[Caseyjunio]

I hope you’ve heard boredom kills, not literally, but it causes depression because you’ll feel it’s meaningless although you might not. Do something, maybe help someone in need just buying someone food who is homeless will cause you to feel better, do something meaningful to you

[shrs3 in reply to Caseyjunio]

Yea ive been trying. I think ive really just been feeling so lonely and isolated that its beem adding to it. Plus my "friend" whos supposed to be there for me never comes over to visit and motivate me. Neither does my family really so its been pretty lonely.

[Jeff1943]

Shrs3, we are allowed to have strange thoughts and strange feelings, everybody does from time to time, but because you suffer from anxiety they are that much exaggerated for you. But do not fear them, they can do you no real harm, though they are discomforting I know. The best strategy is to accept them for the time being, they are a symptom of anxiety disorder and when that passes so will the strange thoughts.

Do not be intimidated by a stray thought, let them come, accept them and co-exist with them for a moment. Do not fight them and anquish over them, fighting causes more tension and fear, your sensitised nerves need less of that not more.

Those thoughts are your anxiety speaking, nothing else, they are meaningless questions because we can never know the answers to them, not in this Earthly realm at least. So I say again let them come, they are harmless enough, you do not need to fear them, accept them and they will soon be on their way.

Agoraphobia is your mind trying to protect you from the outside world. Thank you agoraphobia but it's not necessary, everyone needs to go out, your protection is not needed. Shrs3, you do not need a friend to accompany you out, no harm awaits you the other side of your front door. Do the hard thing, tomorrow take a walk, your legs will carry you and will not let you down I promise, they never do. Start walking and imagine some unseen force propelling you forward at a gentle pace, just float along as if on a cloud, I'm serious, that's how it's done, that's how thousands of others have begun to overcome their agoraphobia: do what you fear and the death of fear is assured.

You are not going to feel like this for the rest of your life I assure you: your nervous system has become over sensitised by stress, over work and maybe disappointment. Stop bombarding it with fear and it will recover and all your problems WILL evaporate and you will no longer wrestle with strange ideas or feel a prisoner in your home.

You will recover, shrs3, I promise you that, just accept all the bad feelings with the minimum of fear for the time being and everything will turn out alright, all things will be well.

[shrs3 in reply to Jeff1943]

Thank you! Im trying very hard to recover

[Gambit62]

this post might give you some ideas of how to break the circle

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