Its been a while since i posted. Im not doing good at all. Im scared for myself. And have really been thinking about going to a paych hospital. Still havent left the house so this makes it about 3 weeks now. I left once to go to my psychiatrist office which was very hard to do. He put me on 10 mg of prozac and and 0.25mg of xanax. After taking Prozac for about 5 days i gad a terrible panic attack. I was ripping out my hair and throwing things thinking i was going to pass out. Then after that was over i was questioning whether it was the prozac so i called my doc and he said to take the xanax twice a day and see if tomorrow was bettet. That night i didnt sleep very good. The next night i had the most terrifying panic attack. I felt like this wourld wasnt real. Nothing is real and existing wasnt real. I threw things, ripped my hair out in a few different spots, yelled for my mom. I called my doctor and he said to stop taking the porzac and take the Xanax. The very next night (last night), i couldnt sleep. I fell asleep around 3;30 and again woke up at 5am with a terrible panic attack. This time i got it a little under control. But these last two days i cant stop thinking about existing and the world. I dont know what to do because these thoughts are absolutly terrifyjng and ive always had these but not to this degree. I think about it 24/7 and i cant turn it off. The xanax isnt really doing anything for me i think because its such a low dose. So im desperate and dont know how much longer i can hold on. Any tips please?