Can’t cope with this anymore 😩

[Amarilloxxx]

I just can’t cope anymore I feel like I don’t want to be in my own skin I can’t stop the feelings and thoughts about my death it’s hoenstly crippling me i have overcome the feeling of intense dread but I still have the doom feeling lingering I just feel that my death is near I have no anxiety physical symptoms just this feeling I can’t cope with exiting anymore I’m never gonna get this away because in my mind I beileve that it’s real and I’m just waiting for me to keel over and die it’s so scary I can’t enjoy life with this feeling I’m on citalopram but they’ve helped my depression and the intense dread but not this horrible thought process or the butterflies doomy feeling I’ve been so intrigued with this thought that I think I’ve actually drilled it into my head even more that I’ll die soon. Nothing feels the same anymore I feel different as a person I feel like my soul is leaving my body I just can’t cope no one can’t help me with this as death is inevitable and that’s just how I feel I’m scared to plan anything cause I think I won’t be here scared to buy new thing because I feel there is no point I won’t be able to use/wear them everything around me fills me with a horrible doom feeling even the good things in life I feel I have no control over anything anymore and I just can’t go on like this even for one more day.. I’m so scared of dying and I mean terrified I don’t want to die. But sometimes with this feeling I just think hurryup and die just die cause I can’t cope with this feeling anymore can someone please please please help me I’m actually begging anyone who knows anything to help me this feeling is disgusting and ugly ugly ugly horrible everyone’s living there life and there’s me waiting to die I would rather have 90 panic attacks a day than feel like this sorry for the long message but I’m desperate

[KrissNique]

I have the same . No major anxiety symptoms just a lot mind confusion. Mine are associated with not feeling like myself . I have thoughts all the time that make me feel like I'm not really here. I'm not real . That life is not real . A lot of questions about my identity . It's one of THE MOST HORRIFIC feeling in life . To be so disconnected from everything including yourself to the point where you don't even imagine a future . Life feels different . It doesn't feel enjoyable . I hear it's all anxiety related 😞. To keep yourself distracted and give it time . You are not alone . Anxiety amplifies your fears . So anything that you've feared once before anxiety increases that fear by 100%. Try to carry through your days regardless of how you feel and stay distracted give you mind some rest . I pray a lot honestly the only thing that has gotten me through . I know this will pass . Bad things don't last forever . I hope this helped you .

[Agora1]

Amarilloxxx, Looking back at your other post makes me know you are stuck right now. Stuck in the "fear of fear" cycle. Living on the edge of death (in your thoughts) is causing you to be convinced that there is no way out of this feeling. That's not true Amarillo. Not true at all. There is not one person on this forum who hasn't experienced the terror that each and every morning brings. A new day, new "what ifs". It is not healthy for you, the baby or your family. There is no doubt that your anxiety is severe and out of control right now. I had been in the same place as you are. Just drag through each day in fear and dread that at any moment something terrible wsa going to happen. A case of why bother to buy anything new to take care of my medical issues, since I was probably going to die soon.

When I look back now, I see how vicious anxiety can be in overtaking our minds with these dreadful negative thoughts of doom and gloom. What is anxiety that it has all this power over us? We have a mind of our own. We can think and reason for ourselves but we are sick. The chemical imbalance in the brain causes these fears to escalate until we cannot even think clearly anymore. This is not a hopeless case, this is the average case for an anxiety patient.

There are always answers to be found in addressing issues that are life altering. I would first suggest going back to your doctor who has you on antidepressant. Letting him know the depression seems a little better but the anxiety is out of control. Your physician will re-evaluate where you stand and how he can make you more comfortable in going forward and not backwards.

Getting therapy at this time is imperative. Fears can be worked out. They are sometimes invisible to ourselves but once they can surface through therapy, you will be able to work on your fears. Chipping away at them one at a time. You will need to get to the point of accepting that this isn't anything more than anxious negative thoughts being fed into your mind. They are not dangerous, you will not die. Not now, not for a long time. You have a lot of memories to make with your baby, your family. You might not see it as a possibility now but it's there waiting for you.

There is a wonderful book by Dr. Claire Weekes that can help open your eyes to what is happening to you right now called "Hope & Help for your Nerves" Written with every anxious patient in mind that it may sound like it was written just for you alone. Make that your foundation in going forward. I also use and recommend meditation/deep breathing to calm and quench those dreaded fears free floating throughout your body.

You can get better, You will get better. Slow steps are the answer. Going forward is the answer. Being stuck is unacceptable. We care Amarillo, you are not alone...Take this journey with all of us behind you. You are Safe.. xxx