Give your heart a break

[Anxieteelondin]

So my therapy and anti depressants really started working and i felt like I was making good progress throughout this nightmare everyone calls recovery. And I'm not disheartened by setbacks or worried about being as bad as i once was.

I just feel as though i persistently worry like a yoyo one minute I'm nervous about my heart for a week or two and then the next i am worried about my brain. Docs and tests say that i am all fine but i cannot help feeling as though I am about to have a HA

I've noticed over the past couple of days that my heart rate seems to go up to about 110bpm so I take a beta blocker to calm it down as it makes me feel more in control but I am worried that when I run out my heart rate will just go up and never come back down again. Its weird i don't have chest pains like i used to or palpitations just a racing heart and its so terrifying.

I spend a lot of time on my own when my partner is away and I just feel like one day he will walk in to me being dead.

i try not to focus on it too much but sometimes its just not that easy

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My heart rate daily goes over a hundred bpm, today just general walking it was 150bpm which did worry me but I do have a virus so that’s prob why it’s higher than normal, then I thought I need to not check it and worry as it always comes down, if it doesn’t come down after several hours go to A&E and if it’s a problem they give you something to lower it but I doubt that will happen. Mine comes down quiet quickly on its own once I rest and relax and not think about it.