Sorry to post again. I have had anxiety (GAD) and PTSD for 5 years, I have had many an anxiety attack that I describe as anxiety racing where I can't sit still and my brain feels on high alert and feel my stomach churning, feeling sick etc... For me that is my norm if anxiety is super high which thankfully wasn't very often.
Then 2 months ago whilst watching a tv show I saw blood on the screen and I suddenly had a panic attack out of the blue, well I think it was a panic attack. I had a hot rush to my face, vision felt black and I was shaking. My brain immediately feared I had that blood phobia that causes people to faint. Ever since I am terrified to see blood, terrified of seeing it on tv, or if people even talk about it. I can have a horrible attack like I had watching Emmerdale.
It got much better and i put it down to high anxiety. Then 2 weeks ago I had a horrible spike in my anxiety and ever since the fear of seeing blood incase I fainted became worse. Today is an example. I was brushing my teeth, saw some blood when I spat as I had brushed too hard and made my gum all sore. My brain then thought 'Oh no, blood, what if I have a funny turn and faint'. I then realised I was upstairs with no phone, what if I pass out and can't get help as i am home alone. I sat on the stop step and felt a hot rush to my face, face was on fire, I was shaking and I felt my vision going all black. By the time I got down to the living room I was shaking badly and my heart rate was well over 120. SO I thought 'Ok, this is the opposite of what a person with true blood phobia experiences as their blood pressure drops (I took mine at this point and it was high) they also don't feel hot and pulse will drop as they faint'. It didn't stop the attack and I just sat there trembling, fast heart, hot flushes to face and head and feeling all woozy in head and vision feeling a little dark at times so I was panicking I would faint.
Awful. I had got so much better with this issue but then out of the blue it triggers again. It's knocked my confidence. I rang hubby in tears afterwards and he said 'they are panic attacks because you fear you must have that blood phobia and you fear that only because you fear fainting'. He says they sound like classic panic attacks but when I googled panic it says tingling hands or feet, breathing difficulties, chest pain, feeling you are having a heart attack etc.... I get none of that. Mine are as I have described.
Can anyone relate to panic attacks feeling like this? My hubby and friends say yup classic panic as I fear fainting so have latched onto blood being an issue because of the attack I had watching the tv 2 months ago, out of the blue. I am not one for panic attacks so this is all new to me and I feel very lost and not sure what to call this or how to deal with it.
Also my friends Dad died yesterday, he fell down the stairs, so that could possibly have made my panic attack worse as I was half way down the stairs when it worsened.
Any advice or reassurance appreciated.