Wish I didn't have to go through this. But I'm going to get through it! ❤

[deesmilesx3]

Hi, everyone!

How are you?

I apologise if I gave anyone a scare yesterday. Myself too, sorry Deanna lol. But right now, I wish anxiety and depression didn't have it's way with me. I mean, it's stopping me from doing things that I enjoy/love. I could never get through a day without having a panic attack. I will just stay home and watch as life passes me by.

It's been like this since I was little. I had a fear of going to places and thinking something bad was about to happen or happen to me. I cry because I am allowing this to control me, knowing I am stronger and can move it out of the way. Sometimes, I will be happy and enjoy my day..then there are times when I am sad and just want to be alone.

I am such a nice girl. Full of positivity and love smiling. Why does it have to happen to me? I know I went through bullying and loss of family members I was really close to. But...why?

It's been a journey of getting better and I tell you this, it was changing. I can get a panic attack or so, but I wouldn't let it stop me from being myself. Never. Cause' I am a champion. Anxiety doesn't define me. I will get through this no matter what. With God on my side! Entering peace and happiness. It's not going to be like this always. 💕

If this confuse you? I apologise.

Deanna

[Wyominganxiety]

I totally understand I have had this awful anxiety for 6 years it's stopped me from being the person I want to be but it has stopped me from being the great mom my kids deserve, it breaks my heart that I can't just on a whim run them to the park or get ice cream I feel trapped and so sad how this is making me, I'm on week 3 of citalopram hoping I get better soon.