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[Bb53]

Sitting waiting for my son to come in From school.had a terrible day so low anxious tired want to go out but can't.promised him a treat his favourite cake .in bedroom again Whitch is were I spend my days off😭😭😭😭got sertraline in my hand and HRT what to take ??? Need to get better I feel like I have no joy in my life just plodding on.miss the old me my husband keeps saying its stroke and menapause but I don't know.xx

[hazyjane77]

I’m sorry you’ve had a terrible day. I know what those are like (having one myself). I hope the sertraline and hrt help. I know how painful it is to want to do things with family and your anxiety/physical health won’t let you. Stroke alone can make you more anxious, and adding menopause to mix can definitely make it worse. I’m not a doctor but I know both can increase anxiety. I hope you find a little peace today 🙏 You deserve a break.

[Bb53 in reply to hazyjane77]

Thanks hazyjane just for a good day never had one since august.i feel like I'm tormented at times .you are a star ⭐️ for caring.we all need a bit of inner peace 🙏.xxx

[hazyjane77 in reply to Bb53]

Anxiety does feel like you’re being tormented.

I really hope that you can have more good days again. When I read your post, I could really relate to how I feel when my poor husband can’t have a wife who can share a normal life with him. I feel extremely guilty about it.

Do you feel guilty too? I don’t know how to stop. I’ve tried to meditate, do yoga (ha), keep busy... nothing seems to work for me. I wish I could offer a suggestion, but I can only offer my support. I’m here if you want to vent or if you want to talk about something else altogether. Take care. You aren’t alone.

[Bb53 in reply to hazyjane77]

I know I won't go out for a meal or meet friends with him as have an inability to cope .so critical of myself headaches come from no were stress I think.im sleeping in spare room my choice as I keep him awake and he has to go to work.he wants to help and so supportive but I'm a moaner and sick of me so I send him and my son out together as I want them to enjoy life.u keep strong I'm always here xxxx

[hazyjane77 in reply to Bb53]

You sound just like me. I isolate myself because My anxiety/ptsd/migraines/neuropathic pain/side effects of epilepsy drugs all just make me miserable. As if stroke alone wouldn’t do all of that. But you add all the other stuff and it’s just so hard to co-exist with people. It’s almost worse when they’re supportive because then I feel so much more guilty because they’re helping me when I complain so much and can get into really negative head space. Sometimes my husband will just beg me to stop being so negative... But I swear the stroke really broke my brain in so many ways and I just don’t see the light very often 😭Thank you so much for offering support. I really need it and have trouble accepting it from others bc they don’t get it and it makes me feel guilty/worse.

I too am always here 💕

[Bb53 in reply to hazyjane77]

Big 🤗 hugs ,keep in touch xx

[HearYou]

Are you under the care of a mental health expert/doctor? Is there a possibility that you have actually had a minor stroke? My mother had one and no one had her checked out, just said she was just having some memory issues. Once you have check up n your body and mind, you'll have some basis to know where to start on a treatment plan. My best to you and your little boy's cake.