Changing my thoughts

[Peacewithin1]

I'm really having a hard time changing my thoughts.. All I do is think negative and all I do is think about my last day here. I really have to figure it out and I don't know when I'll be seeing my therapist again since I'm working again.

[GMason]

What negative thoughts do you have?

[Peacewithin1 in reply to GMason]

I think about dying all day everyday and I just look at everything in a negative way now. I'm also easily irritated now

[kama24 in reply to Peacewithin1]

I can relate to how you feel. I never used to dwell on death on a daily basis until I got old lol Now it is with me all the time. I try to reason with myself that death does not discriminate, it has no age barrier. I know how difficult it is to deal with this negative thinking.

[Peacewithin1 in reply to kama24]

Yes it makes me feel so miserable lol. I see people my age dropping like flies literally every week. Something I didn't share with the forum is my cousin that I grew up with like a sister has been battling cancer for over a year now... she's now in stage 4 and it spread... she's doing radiation for the first time and it's just breaking my heart to watch her go through this as she's only one year older than me. I know when the Drs. Tell us we're healthy... it means we're healthy because I see people going for the same check ups as myself and getting bad news so I learned to believe the Drs but I just have to cure this depression and negative thoughts!

[kama24 in reply to Peacewithin1]

I understand what you mean by negative thoughts that are hard to control. I have found that my age has certainly added to my fear of death yet death knows no bounds, young or old. As hard as it is, if we can just get through the day, enjoy the better days, get through the bad.

[Shelley24]

I have this trouble as well x

[Peacewithin1 in reply to Shelley24]

It's so draining!

[Shelley24 in reply to Peacewithin1]

Definitely is x

[Peacewithin1 in reply to Shelley24]

Hi, you should take a look at the link Gambit62 shared with me below... it may help a little.

[Shelley24 in reply to Peacewithin1]

Ok thank you x

[Hidden]

It's called depression. When you can't change the way you think it's because you're in a depressed state and can't. You need anti depressants or if you don't like meds try Magnesium glycinate or CBD oil these both have anti depressant abilities with Magnesium being the strongest. I take it for that very reason and it works.

[Peacewithin1 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks so much. It has to be because I was never like this before. I'm always upset for no reason now no matter how hard I try to smile... it's very irritating. I'll look up cbd oil. Thanks

[Hidden in reply to Peacewithin1]

CBD oil is cannabinoid, the part of cannabis that doesn't get you high. I use it sometimes but Magnesium glycinate cures your depression within 1 hr of taking it, without ANY side affects.You're definitely suffering from depression.

[Peacewithin1 in reply to Hidden]

I heard about magnesium. Should I check the health food store?

[Hidden in reply to Peacewithin1]

Yes!. Drs best Magnesium glycinate or KAL Magnesium glycinate no other brand !. If you get some start low say half a tablet a day and work your way up to a larger dose. You won't believe the difference it can make.

[Gambit62]

it isn't really about changing your thoughts so much as changing the way you react to them

this post may help

healthunlocked.com/couchtob...

[Peacewithin1 in reply to Gambit62]

Thank You!