I suffered bad anxiety which started in 2014 , triggered by son getting married and having to meet up with ex husband and his new wife .To top it all the wedding was in Greece which made it worse in many ways .
I had a relapse with teeth issue last year . I worked hard to rise above anxiety , start getting back to some sort of normality .
Today my youngest son had just told me he is getting married next year , ( in England )
My confidence feels low since everything ( I was so strong and confident )
Since hearing this latest news I can feel my self feeling tearful and fearing it all returning .
Since my other sons wedding , I now wear glasses and although I feel at times I look trendy in them just feel continua with ex relatives around and suddenly fearing everything .
I can't deal with contacts , gave tried .
I can feel everything racing towards me , fears , upsets , return of everything before ,I nearly lost my mobility last time as my anxiety was so bad .I want to be ahead of my self and not let this all happen again but hate the thought of the wedding just like last time .I should be happy on these occasions but can't find the joy .