I am a human too have some mercy I keep screaming this inside.

[ydal]

Sometimes I find myself writing suicide letters or thinking about taking that step but I can't n I won't do any such thing as my parents theY love me in spite of all my weaknesses. Still sometimes I feel like they don't understand me the way I want them to. Also people m living with currently I am in a different state. It is so hard to live a life away from home.the world out here treats me like a shit. I may say I am in a relationship but then I m not sure is it really a relationship I am being treated like an option. And so I try to express my pain n feelings through writing it all in a form of poetry.....

Stop doing this! You scream inside your head,

Still there you go flawlessly taking a step n then you move ahead.

You need to stop doing that and start saying NO.

And if you don't do this now you will start to degrade your soul feeling vulnerable and low.

Better let them know you ain't a doormat n they can't go stepping all over you,

Don't let them determine your virtues n your values.

Remember a person who is willing to stay will always stay,

Don't be submissive and give yourselves away.

So keep everything that you own ,

And the ones who deserve you will still be there to see your journey end right there by your gravestone.

It feels good for a little while to inspire myself but then again I go back to the same dark pit of depression n anxiety

[Jeff1943]

Anxiety and depression are not a dark pit, they are a proving ground, an arena in which to demonstrate to yourself and the world what you are really made of.

Everyone has their cross to bear, who is without one? For those of us who muster around this forum our cross is anxiety and the depression that comes out of anxiety.

We are being tested by some higher authority and good will come of it. We will emerge with a new strength that nothing can ever take away from us, with our victory over anxiety we evolve to a higher form.

A lovely poem but let there be no more talk of dark pits. We will all survive this the greatest gladitorial contest of our lives. Our first task is to find the way, agree the plan that will bring success. Then all we have to do is kick the door in.

[ydal in reply to Jeff1943]

Thanks for uplifting my spirit.