Right now I don't feel so anxious, but the anxiety usually peaks at night, when I'm in bed. A friend just called me and invited me over later to go and smoke and have dinner, it took some effort to refuse the craving but I said no. Even though my friends smoke 3-4 times a week they are understanding with me because they know I physically need it, so they won't pressure me to do it or offer any if I tell them that I'm trying to quit. Besides the anxiety, boredom is my biggest enemy. As an addict I used to think every single activity was more fun while high (watching TV, playing games, working out, listening to music, showering), and now I don't feel like doing anything because I'm not high and it feels like it won't be fun. I know the first days are the hardest so I hope I can make it clean through this week and, particularly, the weekend. Also hope that once I drive it out of my system the anxiety (not just the withdrawal anxiety, but the social one) will decrease and I can be able to be a normal, human being that can talk to others.
I will try to write a post everyday as a sort of journal to myself and to anyone who wishes to read. I'm grateful for any advice or comments.