My own mother has quite possibly lost trust in me, because in my opinion, my older sister letting her down in the past. Therefore, FOR NOW I try to support her and keep myself at home for them (my parents) sake. I know what you might be thinking...but they are both over 60 and I know I'll regret it when the day comes and they are not here anymore. I am 30.
I have friends, from school and college. But, as the years went on I found myself isolating myself. From them and from being social. My family never in a positive way encouraged me to interact with them or others. From being a teenager into adulthood I just slipped away from these people who had given many opportunities in facebook messages to meet up or go to events. I was younger than and I never took tbose things into consideration.
Now I am at the stage where my depression is taking over and I really find it hard to make actual friends and communicate properly. I do voluntary work and even my new manager is wondering wtf is wrong with me. I can't help but look a bit glum and of course I'm quieter than the rest. I talk , but they have definitely detected that there must be something wrong with me.