I've had anxiety literally my entire life. It got totally out of control last January. Health anxiety, mostly. As well as driving and being in a car, leaving the house, etc.
I've been to the ER about 8x since January. Usually I take a Klonopin when I'm freaking out about health shit, then reassess. But sometimes, I just run straight to the ER. I've "had" leukemia, mouth cancer, skin cancer, lymphoma, lung cancer, brain tumor.. basically everything. All my labs come back normal. I've also been to SO many drs because any time ANYTHING hurts, in my mind it's cancer. I know it's just the anxiety likely making shit hurt, but it's so hard to shake. Even pimples I'll think are skin cancer. It's ridiculous. It's impossible to function. I'm on several meds, which seem to help 80% of the time but that's just not enough. I wanna be better. I don't like going to the ER but in the moment it feels necessary. I've had blood drawn 3x this week.
A little while ago, my hand was hot and swollen and painful. I asked my husband to feel it and he said it was hot as well. I was thinking blood clot and about to run across the street to the damn ER. Hand pain turned out to be from mixing some fucking biscuits with a spoon, and the spoon rubbing my hand. Wtf... I'm so embarrassed that my brain works like this. I'm so tired of everything always being worst case senario in my head. But I cannot control it. Idk what to do 😔