Song I wrote that talks about my experiences with anxiety

These thoughts have the best of me, they won't let me be.

I have no control they attack so aggressively.

The fear comes and it it feels so endlessly,

Depersonalization and anxiety are my enemies.

I want to be strong but I can't with these thoughts in my mind,

Sometimes I want to go blind because I feel fake up in side.

Sometimes I question my existence like if I'm dead or or alive,

I just want it gone for ever and live a normal life.

Im not asking for much just want to be happy again

I can't have a normal day with these thoughts in my head

Like am I going crazy? Or what's wrong with me?

I don't hear voices but I sure think someone's talking to me!

I know it's me I can recognize it but what about this fear? What about this feeling of me feeling like it here?

Or why does everything look fake? Why I do feel so weird?

Why can't I just make this anxiety disappear!?

Sometimes I wish this was easy but it's harder than it sounds,

It's like every single thought is screaming so freaking loud.

Sometimes I want to stop but the fear is so intense

These images are so strong it's like watching them through a lens.

Sometimes I want to escape, escape to a better place

Where there's no pain, no more sorrow, just have better better days

But to get there it's hard it's walking through a maze

When this anxiety came, it came and took all my faith!

I'm feeling hopeless I don't see the point screw it im done!

Wait! But my daughter needs me and for her I'll be strong.

I know I'm not alone but why do I feel like I am?

Even this song is to depressing it doesn't define who I am.

But I'll write it any way because there people out there

That have this disorder just know there people that cares

We're not alone we just got to be strong

Because these feelings these thoughts won't last that long.

[HopingCat]

We are on the same boat. I'm telling you this is hell. I can function but with this hell on top of me. Like I said before I don't think I can beat this without medication. I tried for 6 months and it's not working. I keep pushing and forcing myself act normal for my kids but I can't take this crap anymore. I need help from medication. Are you taking anything?

[Hidden in reply to HopingCat]

No medications for me. It's just a song I wrote and I thought I'd share it with yours guys . I've been feeling much better, at time I struggle but much better.

[Savannah_claire_]

OK, take a deep breath. Listen, I totally understand what you're going through because I'm going through it myself. I feel like my anxiety takes over and controls everything. When this happens, tell yourself no, I'm ok. Fight back, I know it can be hard. Literally out loud say STOP. And find something to distract you. Or get up and exercise, that will help anxiety. I use to jog a lot and I didn't have much anxiety for months and it was so nice. You need to take control, this anxiety will not over take you because you got this. Try deep breathing! Deep breathing helps me calm down and if that doesn't do the trick then tell yourself it'll be OK, you'll be ok. Remember anxiety is just a feeling.

[Hidden in reply to Savannah_claire_]

Thank you! it's just a song I wrote and I thought I'd share it with you guys. I've been doing a lot better. I still struggle but I've been better.