Hey guys, fairly new to this. Anyways, I've been battling anxiety and depression for as long as i can remember. Its at the point now where i have a panic attack in any social interaction even with my parents. Im very suicidal at the moment, Ive just recently been told by my mum that she tried to commit suicide while she was carrying me, she herself was battling crazy a&d at the time. Ive always been looking for answers as to why i am the way i am to get myself better. However after hearing this 1)my mind is all over the place at the moment and 2) Im scared that my genetics and mind are programmed in a way out of my control that ill never be happy and be able to let everything go. Does anyone have any advice on this or know a case thats similar? Im on anti depression tabs and see a councillor but when everythings said and done and I'm on my own in my own head Im just a sad sad person with so many problems.