Lost it

[trippyheadroom]

I stupidly let myself be used at work and have now been fired. I have no money and am out of my mind with worry. The other person involved has said that they would help me but have let to deliver. Previously I was so happy and didn't see how emotionally and now financially dependent I had become on this person. They occasionally return my messages but the waiting for them to come through is driving me crazy. I can't eat or sleep and am forcing myself to get out and about. Have my benefits interview tommorow which I'm dreading as they will contact work. Also scared about signing up to work agencies as I will not get a good reference. 20 years of gone down the drain. I've no problem starting again it the uncertainty of what's to come. Too much time makes me question everything and everyone. I live alone and not told anyone about my situation. Am to ashamed.