Thinking

[davidmcguire8]

Scared off dying , can't sleep , thinking am taken heart attack , this is running my life to be honest , am always thinking about death and scared

[Agora1]

Hi davidmcguire8, What has caused you to worry about having a heart attack? Do you have an illness or did someone close to you die suddenly? Usually something prompts the symptoms of anxiety to appear. It appears that you have a good life but suddenly at night the fear appears. You are certainly not alone in this feeling, there are many on the forum who deal with the same thing. I hope you will be able to share your story with us. Together we can all help each other.

[davidmcguire8 in reply to Agora1]

Hi thanks for replying, this has been an ongoing for years , aye had meningitis few year bk and was really close to death they said from there on its effected my life so much , 4 months ago a was driving my car with my 12year old son next thing a woke up in hospital took a stroke , I'm only 31 , every night am scared to go to sleep in case a don't wake up , will this go away

[Agora1 in reply to davidmcguire8]

davidmcguire8, and now I see the reason. (actually 2 reasons for PTSD) I came close to death once in my life but remember it being such a peaceful feeling that I don't fear it. Have you ever had therapy to address these 2 incidents? If it's causing such stress in your life, it needs to be talked about with a professional. You rationally know we can't avoid death. Being only 31, I understand how it's a rude awakening that life doesn't go on forever. But both times you were spared. Rather than the negative thought before bed, with the help of a therapist, they might have you concentrate more on the positive thought .

Each of us has a reason we were born. I see your 12 y.o. son as just one of the reasons. I hope you are able to get some help for this issue. You have a lot of living to do

[davidmcguire8 in reply to Agora1]

I've never had help but a feel like it's a weight off my shoulders talking about it , a can't talk to family or my partner because s don't open up as much as a do here ,

[Agora1 in reply to davidmcguire8]

I understand davidmcguire8, then use this forum to let your fears and concerns out. You might feel more comfortable talking about it with people who understand and might be going through the same thing. Every one here is caring and understanding of each other's needs. I hope this will help you with moving on. Take care.

[carrieprice1998]

I am always thinking about death too and always scared of dying. Its all anxiety related and theres really nothing you can do about it. I don't normally get to sleep at night till around 3 or 4 am due to this same reason. If your heart is racing and you feel like your dying, that's a panic attack and I also have those on a daily basis. I have been to my doctor with all these same things and was diagnosed with severe anxiety. Anxiety is something we have to learn to cope with. Its not gonna go away but it can get better.

[cinnamonapple89]

I feel the same exact way, you should read my last couple posts. It's very hard because it's a real fear and no one can really ease it. I'm trying to go on a spiritual journey where I get to a place that I can accept death (as much as I can), just enough to not think about it every second of the day. It's really hard, very scary and VERY deep, so I feel for you. It's also very personal, the thoughts and the journey. No one really understands what's in your mind, so it makes me feel more alone that I ever have in my life. Whenever I want to talk to someone about it they look at me like I'm crazy and just say "don't think about it" or "that's life, you're born you live you die". Everyone is scared of death - but I think we are obsessed with it. I've been having very existential thoughts lately as well. "What's this all for" "why do we even have to die" "if life is possible then surely something after life is possible, but what if it isn't and I just won't "be" anymore?". If ever you need to talk I am an inbox away, because I'm dealing with this now and it drives me crazy and makes my depression and anxiety SO deep, it's insane. I'm anxious to basically leave the house thinking that this will be the day I die. I'm so sorry you're going through this. You're not alone. Trust me.

[Hidden]

Hi David.

David your not having a heart attack if you were you wouldn't be able to write this post.

You have simply got this into your head and given yourself fear I've been their done it.

Now you have to unthink it because it's in their,

How about trying this , every time you start thinking it from now on try going for a fast walk and looking around you thinking how beautiful everything is and how lucky you are to be healthy and alive ?

BECOUSE YOU ARE , WE ALL ARE , AND ITS PRECIOUS DAVID ?

and if you cannot find ways to distract these fictional thoughts your having because that's all they are and that's fine we all have irrational thoughts at some point in our lives I'm sure,

Then you might want to buy yourself a teach yourself cognitive behavioural therapy book and start retraining your thoughts because that's all they are David.

Have a wonderful life I know you can do it.

[davidmcguire8 in reply to Hidden]

ThAnk u so much this means a lot

[Ollie33]

I think about dying everyday due to a past trauma I had for nearly 2 years now . It's a nightmare and so exhausting . Anxiety is ruining my life