Anxiety and Disconnecting with life

I've been feeling really detached from life sometimes and ill think its like an anxiety attack or I'm about to have one or something. Its really scary, almost like I'm invincible or watching my life through a movie, or like I'm in a movie. Does anyone else get these feelings? I get my psychiatrist July 3rd. I'm a little nervous because I've heard that all they do is give you medicine . Ive been going to counseling but that just got put on hold because its at school so I can't attend until I get my school thing situated because due to anxiety i think i got dismissed from school because i wasn't able to attend my classes regularly and in college you can't miss any classes or withdrawal too many times. It's like anxiety is ruining everything I've ever wanted for myself, now i have to make an appeal. and the clinic counselor social worker, is terrible she doesn't even care about me. but i guess since its a clinic thats what i get. Made me sad because I really thought the counselor from my college was helping me and i felt really comfortable talking to her. it almost seems like when i take 1 step forward i get forced to take 3 steps back . and i feel like I'm just trying to help myself, I'm only 20 years old. I'm just trying to help myself make it through the year instead of just making it through the day.im literally living day by day hoping i make it to the next because him so tired of anxiety. i wanna be able to make it further than that. you know...

[aburto21]

I'm sorry you're going through this anxiety really sucks. I felt like i wrote this because I'm going through the same stay strong ShiDani you'll make it we all will

[Hidden in reply to aburto21]

Thanks for the encouraging words , I hope things get better asap

[HopingCat]

I don't know if is the same but when I get these weird attacks I get a sick feeling of fear and then all of a sudden I feel like my soul is leaving my body and my eyes turn intense 3D vision and I no longer feel my body. I feel like I'm watching myself from up top. And everyone around me becomes to far away and fake dream feel. I told my psychiatrist on Friday and she told me those are dissociative episodes due to anxiety/panic... which is pretty much depersonalization/derealization. It's pure hell and I'm tired of it

[Hidden in reply to HopingCat]

Yeah it really sucks. Sounds basically the same as me. Like you're floaty and not real or like what you're experiencing is second hand like you're seeing it instead of feeling and living it

[HopingCat in reply to Hidden]

Pretty much. But I'm so confused as to why I get them as attacks. No one has been able to answer that question for me

[Hidden in reply to HopingCat]

I googled it and it said that a lot of times people have anxiety or suffer from depression for a long time it most likely happens. Or if they're sleep deprived. Which is me because I have anxiety and depression and I rarely sleep because of it. It feels like the world is fake sometimes and I feel bigger than anyone I'm passing like I'm walking funny and it feels like I'm like this giant walking in a fake world. I know I'm alive and in a real world but it's something that happens that makes me feel like that. And it's so hard to describe.

[anxietymadman123]

This sound like de realisation search it up its an anxiety feature so dont worry i fee like this sometimes a few week ago I was out and had my earphones in and was out with mates and It was o weird everything seemed like really wrong like it was a different life like I wasnt there an nothing was real just tune in again works sometimes

[Hidden in reply to anxietymadman123]

It's like a weird daydreaming feeling like you're shutting down. I hope that when i see the therapist that I can find a solution sometimes it feels like omg am I going crazy or becoming like schizophrenic or something . It feels really weird like I'm floaty or in a dream or something.