I KNOW I struggle wth anxiety and just began buspar for it yesterday, but it seems like when my anxiety is at it's worst, like it has been for the last week where I feel in an almost constant state of panic, I feel a physical knot in my stomach. Like I know people talk about their stomach being in knots, but when I feel that way, I can actually feel a knot right where the tension is. I know my breathing is shallow, and I can tell I'm holding abdominal muscles in with tension and anxiety, so it feels like it's anxiety or panic, but it's almost like the muscles have truly made a knot there. When I push on it, I feel butterfly sensation much more intensely. The last time this kind of anxiety happened I was sure it was a physical thing wrong and went to the ER, had bloodwork, CT scan, abdominal X-ray and abdominal ultrasound done, as well as a follow up with the GI and an endoscopy. ALL tests were clear and normal. Within 2 weeks of it all beginning, it finally subsided and I assumed it was anxiety all along. Had a short reoccurrence right after Christmas which was 2 months later and it lasted for 5 days. Here I am again with the knot for a week now and it makes me feel physically sick to my stomach though I never vomit. I wake up each morning with super fast racing heart and shallow breathing where I can't get a deep enough breath and it's a panic attack for about 10 minutes and then it calms. But the physical knot and anxious stomach feeling never goes away during the day.
Just curious if anyone else can physically feel the knot of tension or if I'm just weird. I'm very thin, so there is no fat to hide muscles on me.