I just turned 22 and I'm a college dropout.
And now I'm turning into a life dropout.
I haven't been social in so long. It's been about 8 months since I have "hung out" with anyone. I don't have the desire to.. I'm too tired. I feel sick constantly, but I've been dragging myself to the doctor's office to figure out what's going on. My body is swelling a lot, and I have also gained 45+ pounds in the last 3-4 months. So far nothing, but the doctor has noticed the inflammation and I've been trying antibiotics but nothing. My period has also stopped for 7 months now, I am currently in the process of getting that worked out with the doctors.
My head feels like it's swimming now. On the rare occasion I try to drive somewhere, my anxiety is so bad, I'm just internally screaming to get back home. Everything in my vision seems to be moving too fast, everything is overstimulating. I have even started to get paranoid at night now, thinking people are in the house breaking in, but it's nothing!
I just feel like I'm really going downhill lately. I'm not as depressed as I used to be, but I'm so scared. I don't feel okay. Everything hurts badly and I've gained so much weight suddenly and I'm at home doing nothing now. I was so close to finishing my degrees, but I just broke and got so sick and can't even go outside now to enjoy nature.
I don't know where to turn anymore. It's really hard for me to drive to the doctor's office, it's over an hour away and Im just so scared to even be outside anymore, my body has become so weak. I feel like I'm having trouble understanding what my eyes are seeing.
Does anyone have any advice? I don't know where else to turn. I'm really quiet about my health, this is the first time I've ever reached out like this.