I have hit rock bottom

[Denimdungarees]

I'm sitting on the floor in a toilet crying at work. I am so pissed off at myself! What should I do right now?

[Lucas29]

Hey buddy. You having anixety in work? deep breaths, take your time with EVERYTHING. Nobody knows thats what your doing and you can keep it that way. Do you know what set your anxiety off? Ive been in that exact situation my friend, not fun! x

[Denimdungarees in reply to Lucas29]

The issue is while I am doing it, people will talk to me and I don't know what they are saying which makes me worse. The panic attacks are getting so severe, I can't even speak. I don't understand anything and I can't vocalise it because it's triggered by speaking to anybody. I don't know what to do at this moment. I have to go back in at some point, but I don't know what to do?

[Lucas29 in reply to Denimdungarees]

You do WHATEVER you need to do for you, its just a job, if being there is making you do this then its so not worth it, your well being is much more important than some job. If you can manage and get through a private conversation with your boss to just explain what is happening to you today, do that, a good boss will sympathize and help however they can. If you feel you cannot do that, then maybe just go home, if you cannot stand being there then you cant force yourself to do so. Take care of yourself first, thats what matters here mate. If you need to just go home then go home, dont feel bad, dont feel guilty, you cannot help what is happening to you, you are a victim here, so if you need to get out of there, get out of there, go for a walk and just go home, you could email your boss and explain later on or tomorrow. Thats what I did that last time I was in this position. Take care of you before anythin else, thats all that matters here. Many many people have been where you are right now x

[Denimdungarees in reply to Lucas29]

Thank you for the advice. I have gone home now and I will make sure I have a discussion with my boss tomorrow. I think I will be truly honest with her and see what she says. I don't want to make any rash decision before I see my doctor (been waiting over two weeks now) I want to get through this and avoid quitting, but if it continues without support, I may have to.

[mysmugcat in reply to Denimdungarees]

Splash your face with water honestly. Phone your doctor if need be. If you need to go home you do. Please seek out help, I know.

[Denimdungarees in reply to mysmugcat]

Doctor is Friday, but I have been waiting weeks for it. I have gone home, but I continuously seem to be going home. I hope the doctor can help. Thanks for the help

[Lucas29 in reply to Denimdungarees]

Good for you, Im happy for you that you did that. If something feels chaotic and overwhelming, just walk away from it, go home to where you are compfortable and calm. Yeah, just be honest with her, the best way forward for you. One step at a time though, you got the doctors set up, now its time to relax, feet up, maybe a cuppa tea and a good show to get lost in, thats what I do

[Denimdungarees in reply to Lucas29]

That's what I usually do. Snacks and some Netflix. Thanks for the help 🙂

[mysmugcat in reply to Denimdungarees]

Anytime. I've gone home in tears before.

[Dom1234]

Make sure you remember that this phase will pass. I'm going through severe anxiety and depression myself at the moment. I'm having Therapy and it's starting to help. The best thing is to talk and be around people if you can. Keeping yourself occupied with things you enjoy doing helps too. Stick with it, it won't last.

[Denimdungarees in reply to Dom1234]

Thanks for the advice. I hope to see a therapist soon 😊

[Finglas-Boy]

Sorry, Denim etc(!). Just picked up on your post. Hope you're feeling better today. "Rock bottom is a shite place to be I know. But please reach out to your medics & the folk on here. As Oscar Wilde said; "We might be lying in the gutter but some of us are looking at the stars"!