I hate living with anxiety disorder I feel like I'm be like this forever 😔 When I hear disorder I feel like I would never be back to normal I don't want live anymore I'm very suicidal suicidal but only reason I'm here cause my dad I lost my sister 3 years ago my dad goes through depression I don't want him do anything to himself if I kill my self. . I think about my future a lot now death is one of my fears. I feel like I can't have kid cause I'm labor I would stop breathing I think a lot I hate it. . Everyday I feel hopeless I would never get better . Everyday is something wrong with me i can never just be normal for one day.