I was taken out of school over a year ago because of my anxiety and because I was bullied. I have selective mutism and depression and got bullied because of not talking, I felt sick all the time and did not sleep. Every time I went into the classroom some one would say 'oh look that weird girls here, the one that doesn't speak ' And then they would all laugh. I would get blamed all the time in lessons for ruining the games that we played at the end because the teacher said if EVERYONE did not take part in the game we couldn't play it. And then they all hated me because they couldn't do the games. (Because I couldn't talk)
People used to stab we with pencils and pens and wouldn't stop until I spoke to them and I came home most days with bruises on my arms because they stabbed me so hard. I can't talk to anyone apart from my parents and a friend from my old primary school who last week was doing a livestream on Instagram and was saying some really nasty things about me and I have never been mean to her. And now I have no one.
I feel so lonely and fed up all the time and there is nothing I can do about it, I have tried counselling but she said I shouldn't come anymore because she couldn't help me.
I don't know what to do anymore, so what's the point.
My hamster past away on Wednesday and I know it sounds strange but I loved her so much and she was the only thing in the world that really loved me. My family couldn't care less about my selective mutism and they see it as a contest as to who can be the first to get me to talk to them. Some of them say I just 'suck the life out of them'
Any advice on dealing with..... well..... life I would REALLY appreciate. Sorry this is such a long post. But If you have read this far thank you so much it means a lot