I have been unemployed by choice for almost 2 years now. Previously I worked while trying to cope with my GAD, Panic Attacks, and Depression because I wanted to be independent and knew that being unemployed was not an option. I had found an employer/job that I was more comfortable with but towards the end of my employment (of 6 years) there I started having both physical and mental symptoms that became debilitating and after a series of unfortunate events my husband and I decided that it would be good for me to take a break.
My first question is:
If you can relate, how do you deal with questions as to why you are not working from family/friends or strangers? I am 24 years old and look healthy so I get very strange looks when I have to discuss my unemployment. I am filled with a lot of shame even though I know I couldn't hold down a job. I get a lot of unintentionally condescending comments about how I am selling myself short/ or confusion because I've been employed before.
My second question is:
At some point I may feel more recovered and seek employment so how do I go about explaining my gap in employment? I've seen a myriad of opinions, (don't disclose/say it's a medical problem/ lie- which I would never do) but I don't feel comfortable keeping my mental health issues from an employer because it is a huge part of my life/reality and issues will surely come up as I have suffered with these issues since childhood.
In the past I have done a horrible job coping with my anxiety/depression and the stress that comes from holding a job never eases up for me.