Boredom. All the time.

[Anxiously_Mikey]

I’m so bored.

Exactly 3 months ago, had a more or less nervous breakdown. Spiraled into anxiety then depression.

Since then, been meditating daily, and reading books (such as Elkhart Tolle)

Not much has improved too much. Meditation always helps, but just temporarily. Trying to be in the present moment is very difficult but only helps a little. I understand I have a lot of negative thoughts that I am working to accept and don’t give them attention (as opposed to re-directing my attention to something else). This is working, but maybe just a little.

Overall… this boredom thing is just RELENTLESS.

My therapist (Psychologist) said “join more clubs, try more sports, try new hobbies, etc.”

I hate that advice. Ive tried that. Again, only helps temporarily.

I wonder if this boredom part of a “spiritual transformation”. I asked my therapist but he doesn’t really get into any spirituality, vibration, ascension, etc.

Makes me wonder… is a spiritual transformation really just a metaphor for acceptance?

Therapist says its ‘existential anxiety'.

Cant tell if I am clinically depressed, or spiritual transformation. I cant tell if I should go down the clinical path, or the spiritual path. Any thoughts?

I really want to avoid antidepressants. But its hard to continue the patience.

[Agora1]

Hi Anxiously_Mikey, Sometimes, too many questions and too many doubts just overwhelms us which then makes us depressed and anxious. Oh sure there are a lot of little things we can do but the results as you have found, is only temporary. Pounding the pavement day in and day out in trying to find the answer to boredom is "boring". You don't need a hobby, or a club or sports. Those are generic remedies and if your heart isn't in it, it's not going to work. Putting everything aside for a moment, follow your heart, follow your dreams of what you want and expect out of life. There lies the answer. Good Luck Mikey

[Freekat]

Not sure if there is a right answer. Some questions need no answer. For me i do both spiritual and clinical. Meditation does help but temporary. Spiritual transformation is finding your meaning and purpose its becoming so acceptance plays apart i believe. Follow your inner voice. Patience is to be learned.

[Gabortomanek]

Spiritual transformation is awakening. Its not a process, it happens in a blink of an eye, when you least except it - like after shower, during taking a good sh*t, etc. - you just gotta do what u suppose to do daily. You dont need to make any effort in order to be in present. That is simple. You gotta learn how to do it tho. Pay no attention to your feelings, even if its overwhelming. Its hard, but managable. Keep up m8.

[Anxiously_Mikey]

hmm.. Ive read a TON about spiritual awakening, and what I am reading is that it is a process that could take days, moths, years.. everyone is different. unless I am talking about a 'transformation' as opposed to an 'awakening'? Wasn't sure it happens spontaneously unless you have reached absolutely ROCK bottom. I am not at rock bottom (which contributes to my anxiety- I have so much good in my life, yet I feel like crap a lot of time.. why? why? why?.. cant pinpoint it..) I have a stable job that is not stressful, great wife, great child, warm home, etc.... but no matter how much I tell myself that I should feel more grateful.. I just don't. Or, I should say, telling myself that I have it so good and that it could be SOOOO bad, and sooooo many others have it WAY worse than me... it just doesn't help.. makes me feel guilty for not feeling good. Isn't that messed up? Therapist said I am very hard on myself, which I guess I am.. I just fee so lost, like I should be contributing to the world, but don't know how. I try hobbies, sports, books, etc.. I am far from lazy.. yet i can find no passion. wtf.