Please don't judge me.
I've being experiencing intrusive thoughts for a year now but I have never spoken about them to anyone. I can't shake them off and the topics switch.
Right now, I'm having one about physically harming people I love.
I think I mainly get them because I was brought up in a household where my dad was abusive towards my mum.
I'm scared in case it's genetic and I'll hurt people too.
I also always think back to when I was like ten or eleven and I punched my best friend for no reason like I don't know why I did it. That was years ago but I still feel insanely bad about it. I'm eighteen now.
I feel like I'm going to lose control.
Am I capable of hurting someone? Like could I just lose myself and do something crazy? Am i a bad person?