I don't know what's real anymore. I feel so alone, so frustrated with life. I want to disappear and not feel. I don't understand why my life is so hard for me. I find zero pleasure in life. I feel so alone and afraid. I try so hard, And get absolutely no where. Stuck in the same spot. What's the point now...no one is coming to rescue me...ever. Can't do it alone, now what? I'm so overwhelmed I don't even wake up with any peace...I want out of my misery.