Feeling scared of everyhing.

[Chezlock]

Hi i am 23 years old and have twp beautiful boys i recently had my second child two months ago and had him via c section cut a long story short my csection got infected and i ended up very ill and depressed but i had to take antibiotics to clear the infect but i am that scared of taking medication when i did take it i had a very dodgy turn my body felt like it was having a fit and now ever day for the last two months has been hell i have bad turns all the time i hate being on my own but hate being around people i force myself to do every day routines and i have a temp constantly. I just cant shift the feeling of being anxious it really is ruining my whole life. I never let the kids see me suffer they always have my attention but it feel like an on going cycle of feeling like this my blood feels like it boils all the time my body often goes into shock and i cant stop shaking for about 10 mins. There is so much more to my story like i hate being in cars with the windows up i hate the thought of drinking and my anxiety stoped me from smoking. After i eat i feel awful like my heart races. Im not sure whats going on and i hate feeling like this i wouldnt wish it on anyone but the constant thought that goes through my head is that if i take tablets from the docs im going to get into a cycle of being dependent on them and then on the other hand i dont want to feel like this anymore. Everything is scary its so upsetting.

[Skyrooms]

HI chezlock,

I am sorry for all the mental and physical ailments that you are going through. You are so young and have a whole life ahead of you.

I suggest counseling asap. I would go seek therapy for 2-3 times a week for the first week or two.

What really stands out for me is the medication. If a psychiatrist wants to puy you on medication,I would try it. I know about the social stigma of being on meds. But, because of Prozac, I dont have daily panic attacks anymore. My first attack was when I was 17 years old. I went deaf and blind for a few minutes.

I have been taking Prozac my whole life. Ask the doctor if you could get a medication that is not addicting.

You have nothing to lose.

You do have a whole brand new life to get back to.

With much love and support,

Skyrooms

Ps:pls feel free to write me anytime.

Good Luck,and dont give up.

[Chezlock in reply to Skyrooms]

Thank you so much for replying im new to this tonight because i feel i need to speak to others who feel the same am i do, the thing about tablets with me is that infear if i take something im going to have a bad turn and then when i do actually go on to take something i do have a bad turn because iv drilled it into my head that its going to happen. People have said to me that drugs do help with anxiety but my biggest fear is not feeling myself and i dont feel myself when i have taken a tablet. Like for example when i just had my second child the tabs they gave me for recovering from a c section was very strong but they honestly helped me through it but when i got the infection and had to take antibiotics they was way too strong and made me really bad and from that day everythings gone down hill for me. Theres so many things that could have triggered my anxiety iv always been one to say no to drugs legal or illigal so iv probs drilled the no drugs in my head that much. But honestly i feel like im going out of my mind i am so very scared of it getting worse and leading to other things. Going to see my dr monday to see what he says because i cant imagine living like this much longer it isnt fair on my boys. Ps sorry for the long message when i get into something i could go on forever xx

[Ohtobepainfree in reply to Chezlock]

Hi, after all you been through, please don't worry about how medication will make you feel. I had a similar experience, it's quite possible you've post natal depression now. If so they'll make certain you're prescribed medication that suits you as you've young children to look after. I'm sure they won't make you feel anything but better. Hugs x