Just waiting till the day I feel normal again.

[Slaymate]

I'm seriously so sick of not feeling normal. I'm trying not to freak myself out. My blood sugar is still being goofy and I'm scheduled to see the endocrinologist in a couple weeks. My head feels like it is swimming all the time. I'm a nervous wreck all the time. I did start therapy, but it's only been two times. I feel sick every day. I try breathing techniques. I just am looking to vent and wonder if anyone understands what I mean by cloudy brain, or feeling like I'm swimming under water?

[Hidden]

I have bad health anxiety with everything. And I have it everyday. Some days are better than others of course but some days are really bad. My mind is always on the go. The only time I can say I'm at peace with myself is when it starts getting dark out. I think its because I know the day is almost over.. Morning are the worse. Especially getting up and getting ready when I have things to do. I get really nervous when I know I have things to do and have to leave the house. I like being home. Its my safe place. I like to color and I like to write. And that's how I spend most of my days. I have been dealing with several health issues that I have had explanations for by doctors so its not like I don't know what wrong. The problem is i am always scanning my body. To see how I feel and to see if anything seems off or out of place. Its a nasty cycle and its very hard to break. My head goes in circles all day that I actually start gagging and make myself feel sick by the nasty thoughts. I am going to talk to someone soon and I hope it works. I hope you find what works for you. Try writing down how you feel. The times the dates and everything and keep a journal about it. It can even help doctors at times if you show them the journal you have kept about the problems you have and when you have them. I hope you feel better but you are not alone. Everyone has problems and its all how you handle them. What you give power to has power over you. Best wishes to you ☺

[SteviePie]

What is normal? I get cloudy brain all the time. It's like whenever I try and think, there's a roadblock in my head. Happens all the time