What is this???

[Disan15]

So my Father went abroad and tonight he called me.So when he was talking I was running out of credit,so I told him that I will cut the telephone line.But he was telling me some things and the telephone line was cut when my credit was over.So then I told to MYSELF what a fool he is and talking and talking non-stop(Which I regret the most)(I’m a little hot tempered guy).So after I said that to myself,seconds later I was like what the hell did I say?And that time onwards I was thinking about it and my mood just went off.So after thinking and thinking a lot of time I decided to find a forum and share my pain with some fellow people because it’s not possible to share with any others I know.Much help would be very much appreciated.Thanks.