I have severe emetophobia and PTSD that was caused by a car accident several years ago . I fractured my neck and was put into a spinal board . In the back of the ambulance whilst laying flat and not being able to move I started to feel like I was going to be sick , but I thought it would flood my lungs if I was and as a consequence I experienced my first ever panic attack .
Five years later , I have gone through stages of not touching the post or money Incase I catch a bug . Scrubbing my hands several hundred times a day to now . I have rationalised things out and thankfully am able to lead a relatively normal life . I do however find the ongoing anxiety crippling .
I have panic attacks 2-4 times a day , nausea , dizziness , sweating , palpitations and not being able to sit still . One time I even lost all feeling in my legs and my mind actually managed to paralyse my legs for 24 hours.
I'm 24 years old , I'm lucky to be so healthy but I just can't combat the anxiety .
This is my first ever post so not sure how to end it but I am just hoping to find people that understand me .
Thank you for reading this