Not an hour, more like 7 months smh I don't know what to do.... But it feels okay not to be alone... But I'm sorry you feel this way... I wouldn't wish this on anyone at all 😔😔😔😔😔
Like I'm just literally sitting here in tears like wtf happened to me??!! I used to be so happy so full of life! So ready for the day when I got up in the morning, felt important, felt like somebody! Just 7 months ago! Then everything changed in November. I haven't been the same since. I feel like a nobody. I lost my job last year, moved to a different state. I homeschool my little girl. So I feel like I have no one to help me with her while I look for a job. I'm a mess. I used to love myself so much and now I just look at myself like who tf have I become and what happened to me. I feel like such a failure. I'm afraid of everything. Can't even get in the car without being afraid of an accident smh I'm a complete wreck and I don't see a way out
What did the vitamin D do to you?.. Did it give you substance induced anxiety/panic disorder like me? Mine was marijuana induced smh one night made me this way since November
I think joining this forum may really help you. There are many people here who completely understand how you feel. The amazing people I've communicated with on this forum never judge me. We are all at different stages in our fight against depression and anxiety. You will find sympathy, true empathy and an acceptance of who you are here. This forum isn't a cure all or a magic answer to all our problems, but it has helped me such a lot. When I realised I wasn't alone and that I wasn't some kind of weak and terrible man for feeling so depressed and anxious, it was like turning a corner. I'm not suddenly cured. I will always have to fight my depression and anxiety. I have clinical depression, but this forum has been a godsend. I really hope you find some help and comfort here too.
Thank you so much, that truly means so much to me. This forum has indeed been helping me cope and understand that I'm not alone. And knowing I'm not alone is more than enough on top of not being judged. I actually really love it here. Thank you 😌
Smjtty is extremely at good at describing how depression, anxiety and regret feel.
I'd like to see her words published if she would allow it, because I think a lot of people who don't understand depression and anxiety could learn a lot from her words.
Once again Smjtty, your prose is so melancholy but reverberates with everyone who has felt depressed and defeated. You certainly have a gift when it comes to describing the awful nature of depression and anxiety.
Could you do something for me Smjtty? I wonder if you could write a piece of prose describing what it felt like to be happy and how you would like to feel in the future. Would that be too difficult? If it is please don't try to do it.
A human brain is a bit like a computer. If you program a computer with harmful code, that computer will never work properly.
If we humans keep programming our brains with negative thoughts and reinforcement we will continue to get negative feelings and outcomes.
I'd really like to see you use your skills as a writer of prose to write something optimistic, something that mentions how strong you are and how you have endured and survived.
You have come through such a lot Smjtty, you have suffered unfairly and you've been hurt. But you never gave up and you are still here. That shows amazing courage and tenacity.
You no longer have to exist in panic mode. You don't have to continue to inflict abuse on yourself just because others abused you for so long.
You are safe now. You have friends here who care.
I'd really like to see you put some positive programming into the Smjtty 'computer'. Are you going to let this fear and self loathing finish you off after surviving so much?
I know it's hard. Please don't think I'm being harsh. I'm trying hard to find a way to help you if I can.
I think you deserve to be happy, or at the very least less unhappy and fearful.
You're not alone. Not here. No matter what you write I will continue to read your comments because they are so powerful. They're difficult to read sometimes because they can be so sad.
You are in my thoughts often. I wish there was more I could do to help. Maybe you just want someone to listen and recognise your pain. I'll always listen.
Yes your writing would stay here as a post but once we get more posts instead of your poems getting missed they could all be easily still found because if you look at the right side of the page where it says " Topics " if you liked we could have a section for poems so they would also all be in there as well this way once your post starts to get lost among all the traffic of other posts they can easily be found again as well as any other members that wish to add poems in there to
Was just a thought as so many members seem to get so much from reading others poems and only a suggestion
I think you have taken what I was suggesting totally the wrong way , it was actually meant as a compliment towards your wonderful poetry and was only A " Suggestion " not A " Request " and things will stop the same just as they are
Please continue to write as we all enjoy your contributions
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What is it about pregablin?
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Introducing myself and what started everything 
Need Help...dont know what is happening to me 
What's the difference?
