Hi , im going through a really really bad time at the moment and cant stop crying . I think im dying all the time. I told my boyfriend i didnt want to leave hin behind or die on my own and that they were the things that scared me knowing he would move on and that id be going through dying alone. He sat me down and swore on his families lifes that if anything happened to me or was told i was dying he would come with me because he wouldnt have a life without me. Hearing hin say this makes me feel so much better but that is very wrong of me isnt it that i need him to tell me he will die and be with me in order for me to feel better. I would die with him in a heartbeat.just knowing that he says he would come with me and be by my side makes me feel better. Am i a horrible person?