Since I was 12 I've felt like I don't experience myself like other people, like the lights are on,
i'm somewhere at home
but so deeply spaced out that I'm unable to exist in the usual way
very hard to explain.
.i'm not on any meds/recdrugs for over 30 years
The world seems 'real'. I feel a lot of emotional pain a lot of the time,but 'me' feels too deeply hidden to come into alignment.
Was told it's called depersonalisation..part of PTSD which I've had all my life nearly.
I feel like an alien being in a world of people who exist as themselves, feeling real and in alignment,
not like I feel at all.