been depressed and suicidal at work

[danielsc15]

hi guys.

I've been struggling a lot more with depression lately than anxiety. Especially since i started working. I generally like working and quitting isn't an option, but I don't feel like I'm in a very positive enviorment. I've cried a handful of times already due to stress and it's only been about a month or so at my job. Since I haven't been very mentally stable the past year, taking on a job was already a big step. I feel like I'm doing a terrible job and really get upset when I am scorned at for doing something wrong. I've never been a person to take things lightly and i really wish I could change that. I'm just tired of always trying really hard and failing or only being recognized for my mistakes. I'm so depressed and suicidal right now and am at work so I can't really do anything about it. Please help me. I don't know how much more of this i can take.

[Agora1]

danielsc15, that's a bad combination. Something about that job is putting you over the edge. I could imagine all you have been through during the past year, taking on a new job is causing the depression. What I don't like to hear is the suicidal thoughts associated with it.

You do need to see someone, a therapist who may be able to help you or a doctor who should know your thoughts in order to keep you safe. Please let us know how you are doing this evening. We will all help and support you but you do need professional help right now. x

[danielsc15 in reply to Agora1]

I do have a therapist & am on medication, thank you

[terry_12345 in reply to danielsc15]

Don't get upset. There is just so much we can do. I know what you mean. Its hard. I wish we all felt better. I don't know what to say I hope you are ok!