i keep getting bad pains in my side, bladder and lower back. few weeks back i had blood in my wee. had 2 urine tests and found no blood but slight infection but my last urine sample showed all clear yet my pains seem worse. im feeling suicidal. keep searching best ways to kill yourself without pain. scared i have cancer! my boyfriend says if i die or have terminal cancer ge would commit suicide with me. this is the only thing keeping me from going mad knowing he will be with me if i die. i couldnt go through it alone and he said i wouldnt have to. im so down!