Having a rough day! Please help

Hey guys, still been taking my Magnesium, so it's not as bad, but I'm starting my cycle in a few days which I'm aware makes my anxiety and DP worse. But just feeling this impending doom feels like torture. Like I wish people would stop talking about "life lessons" and "life experiences" i hate that. It just sounds so final. Like do people realize what they're saying?? Am I the only person that hates this way of speaking?? It's just so annoying. On top of this, my baby brother who is 23 just went to prison for being at the wrong place at the wrong time. Now he's caught up in some serious shit and now we have no idea how long he'll be there.. It's driving me crazy thinking about it. I can't text him, or call him and when I see him, I can't touch him. It's been this way almost 2 months and not knowing how much time he's going to get is so hard to deal with. It feels like I'm grieving him going to prison. Is that normal?? Can you still grieve even tho the person is still healthy and very much alive?? he's my baby brother and it just hurts so bad.. And bad thing is, his arrest happened 2 weeks after my first panic attack and made my anxiety even WORSE! And the impending doom is what's bothering me the most besides the DP/DR. Please will somebody say something??? I'm really hurting today...

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lulu-1

2 years ago

Hello

Sorry you are having such a tough emotional time which is no doubt going to make you feel more anxious and what people say is also going to irritate you more than maybe it usually does as well as been premenstrual to ! I better be careful how I reply when I look at that list

It must really hurt seeing your baby Brother in such a predicament and yes you can grieve for people that are still here but are not in reaching distance anymore in fact it can sometimes feel worse in a way because when you loose someone and they are no longer here deep down you know there is nothing you can do but when someone is not in your life as they should be and still here the grieve can feel like torture

There is nothing you can do about this situation though as painful as it is , it is not your fault and you can only hope that lessons have been learnt and once your Brother is back out he can make a fresh start and you can make a promise to be there to help him and meanwhile you can keep contact by letter or visiting and let him know how much you love him that will help him through all this and while he is you have got to put you first and get the support you need