My thoughts on OCD.....I,ve had this condition...

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What did my thoughts tell me....

Firstly ....ruminating thoughts or mind chatter is prevalent in an anxious/ depressed condition, they do subside when you slow your mind and find moments of calm..

But before I understood this my OCD was alive, I had to do things in a certain way, or double check things that I had done.

I couldn't even write a letter....the pen wasn't the right colour, or my writing was not perfect, the spacing wasn't perfect, it was not in line......10 goes at it, throwing each copy in the bin I would give up exhausted and in a worst state than I started.

And that was only one example, each day would be something different.....it felt like I was at war.

For me OCD was about ( as far as I could fathom)

A) Control....fear of chaos, did not want to deal with life.

B) Double check it was correct ( wouldn't get into trouble)

This was fear of not being liked, I.e. Looking for love and affection ( returning to the lost child).

C) Perfectionism ( not being able to handle criticism)

D) Believing something bad would happen if routine was not adhered too.

It was a long journey and the only way out was to change my thinking as living like this was miserable, the change took a time and a lot of courage and soul searching but today I realise

that...

A) You cannot control anything...life just happens.

B) You look for love and affection only when you don,t have love in your own heart...learn to love yourself and know you are good person.

C) No one is perfect, it is impossible, and if others spend there time criticising and judging they are the ones with an empty life, they are the ones with issues, they are mentally unbalanced....Not You...

D) The imagination at work...ignore it, I did and nothing bad ever happened, it is based on medieval thinking...

Here is a link to have a look at

facebook.com/Seeing-through...