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I dont want to be here anymore.. panic attack

I woke up, sudden splurge of anxiety. I can't stop shaking. I feel sick to my stomach so nauseaus an anxious my heart just wont sit right in my chest. I am so scared, this is the worst, I cant handle the shaking. I dont want to be here any more please help. is this a panic attack or what? will I ever be better ?

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Rose, it certainly sounds like a panic attack. Is someone home with you?

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No! I can't breathe the butterflies in my stomach and my heart and the shaking is too much for me. I'm not strong enough to do this. I'm so scared. I am terrified. I feel so so sick and shaky and its only 12 am. I havent woken up in a fluster like this in years now. Im so upset

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Go to nearest ER IMMEDIATELY, they will help you .

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Hang in there Rose. It WILL pass. Remember that you've had feelings similar to this before, yes? And after those feelings, you've had better times where it isn't as bad, even good again, yeah? It will pass. Think about how you've got passed panic attacks before. Know that and think about how you are going to again. Look forward to that feeling. It will happen. These are thoughts and they can't actually harm you. Hugs xox

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its the shaking and the nausea the sickly rush of adrenaline. I really dont think these meds are working this time, I cant remember the last time I had an anxiety attack like this, most of the time its more my head not in my stomach with the shakes and the overwhelming butterflies in the stomach. It has come so out of the blue this evening. So scared :(

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Oh Hun :( I feel for you...I really do! It's funny how we can all relate to these feelings. I'm feeling a tad anxious this morning as well, so I'm just eating some breakfast & I'm going to clean. Can you do anything to try and occupy yourself?

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Thank you for replying to these posts right now it means alot more than you know. its so late here its just gone 12 am which means this side of the world is sleeping. I dont want these panic attacks and adrenaline to get a hold of me. I know I keep saying but then adrenaline and the nausea and the uncontrolable shaking kills me. I swear it makes me scared to get through what could be to come.

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One thing we know & even though in the middle of a panic attack we don't believe this...BUT the TRUTH is...we will NEVER die from a panic attack, even though we think it's the end with every panic attack we have. Are you laying in bed now? If so, maybe get up and go and put the tv on, or something I do is I draw or colour in. It's so hard when you're at the peak of the attack but what goes up must come down.

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I'm so tired, I want to just go back to sleep but scared I am going to wake up in the same way again... I think tomorrow/the future could be really bad for me and im so scared x

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I feel the same hun. Everyday is like ground hog day, the second I open my eyes it's like "what's today going to bring" we bring it on ourselves unfortunately but when we are so use to having panic by our side it's all we know. It's sucks and it's horrible!

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it sure is. it bloody terrifying. what are you doing today? xx

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How you feeling now, has it subsided a bit? I'm just about to read my book by "Russ Harris". It's called the happiness trap, and my other one I ordered literally just arrived in the mail, it's called the reality trap. If you look on bookdepository.com type in his name. His books are real life as he was like us. Their is really cool methods to use, not just breathing exercises & stuff like that. One exercise I'm enjoying is...he makes you think of something that makes you feel anxious etc. for me, I'm constantly thinking I'm a bad mum because my anxiety stops me from leaving the house. So you need to think that constant thought for 10secs. Then, he gets you sing that thought to the tune of happy birthday & then jingle bells...after it, it makes you realise our bad thoughts are literally just a thought & not real. So after you finish single I'm a bad mum to jingle bells lol you feel a sense of humour as it sounds so ridiculous. The website is based in the U.K I think, I ordered mine last week & received one on Monday and one today here in Aus. They only costed me about $25 aud for both books. I want to buy all of his books, he's amazing & everything he has written is so true & he doesn't suffer coat anything. I find myself reading it and smiling, as it's so funny to see my thoughts & feelings written by someone else! Check it out rose, I really think you'll enjoy them! X

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I have felt like that before. I found that panicking makes it worse. It definitely sounds like a panic attack but you have to look forward to feeling better. I think you need to see the doctor ASAP. Anxiety gets you down it makes me feel like there iis no light at the end of the tunnel but you will get better. Panic attacks are the worse especially at night x

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yeah I think maybe I need to change my medication. Im so glad Im not alone feeling this way. It is like my body at the moment is in fight or flight against sleeping. I'm so scared!! This is so intense! My only escape is sleep I sure hope it doesnt start to steal it from me

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I've had ones like that hun. I usually put the tv on and find something funny to watch like friends or family guy, even though you might not properly watch them, the background noise will distract you slightly. Can you get up to make a sweet cup of tea or get some juice?

Can you call someone who you know might be up right now?

I also play silly games on my phone and put a light on. There's nothing worse than not being able to focus on something when it's pitch black.xx

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it is horrible isnt it? the impending doom and adrenaline rush on the heart and the shaking. Oh my god it is just the worst. Im so tired now but scared to go to sleep and scared this is going to become more constant. Please tell me it is possible to get through it? xx Thank you for replying!!! xxx

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I get them worse when I'm stressed or soooo tired. I stop breathing in my sleep and I jolt upright. Sometimes I feel like my body is even too tired to breathe. I always sleep with a light of some kind on like a lamp or the tv because I hate waking up in a panic and not being able to focus on something.

I shake my hands around but I don't know why, I pace the floor in my attempt to steady myself even though I've never passed out from it. I'm 35 now and had panic attacks since I was 11. People who don't suffer this illness think we're mad but they don't feel what we feel. It's hard and it's horrible. xx

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Leesha, reading what you just wrote is EXACTLY what I do. I shake my hands like crazy to try and distract myself! I lay on the floor incase I pass out...but like yourself I've never passed out either. So off how are mind allows the same thoughts to try and take us down! We are all fighters & luckily we have all found this great forum where we can all compare our "issues" and know wenare certainly not alone. X

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Hi rose,

I have just had what I believe to be a panic attack. I have been suffering with what I can only describe as an 'odd head' for the past two weeks. Constant dizziness, waves of what feel like electric pulses, and severe pressure. This has caused me no end of worry, and like others, think I have some sort of Timor. I have been through a stressful time lately, and been diagnosed with anxiety. I have never experienced anxiety attacks before, but I have never, in my life, felt so scared. This is the first one I have had at night, on my own. Waking up, sweating, shaking, having to pace up and down and the overwhelming fear that I am going to die or something. I am now lying here, trying to sleep, but like you, fear it will happen again.

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oh no babe what happened? are you okay? I just woke up again and the same thing hapened!!! I dont think I can get through this!! it is awful :( sending you love and hugs xxx

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I just woke up, head full of what I can only describe as swooshy waves that feel odd, and then the panic set in. Extreme shaking in my arms and legs, severe sweating and a dry mouth. The worst thing is, I felt like I was going to keel over, a real fear of dread and panic. Then, I am left feeling I am seriously ill. My dr is convinced it is anxiety, but he is sending me for a cat scan next week for a peace of mind. I just feel scared. I am usually very outgoing, and fun, but this is making me sad.

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Oh lovely that is crap :( are you alone or with a partner? it is horrible isnt it?!?! Im so scared to sleep again now but I am so so so so tired. xxxx

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I am on my own. I am going to try and sleep now. Got work at 8! Hope you get some sleep now. X

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How are you ladies going? Have you managed to beat the anxiety demon so you can both get some sleep?

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I did beat it in the end, but I am struggling again now, this morning. I cant breathe, my heart feels like it is going to explode. I feel hopeless. xx

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You need physical checkup! Get appt and let someone help you . There are meds that will help you calm down . Get help !

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I already have diazapam but only a few left, but I dont want to keep relying on these. just want to get out of the anxiety rut, Im taking citalopram aswell but its been almost three weeks and my anxiety is awful

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For me, the first step is to accept that you have anxiety . I have Fibromyalgia and have panic attacks. No one wants any of these diseases but this is what we got and there are so many others that fight much worse. Everybody fights something in their life, this is yours. When you quit being angry and scared that you have it, ACCEPT that this is and FOCUS on HOW TO MANAGE it so you start controlling it instead of it controlling you . Meds will help, no one wants to take but no one wants the panic either. There are calming techniques that you can learn that will help lesson your attack. Yes it sucks but it is going to suck whether you manage it or not . YOU CAN DO THIS !!! 😘😘

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morning what next I am on citalopram 20 mg . Im not good this morning, feeling the anxiety again, I feel so sick

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do you think the citalopram is making it worse before it gets better? I also have beta blockers. How long have you been on your meds for? xx

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I have 40mg of betablockers x

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I though 40 was the strongest? I have made a docs appointment but am already panicking about going. I feel so scared of life right now I just want to break free of these stupid chains aniety puts me in!!

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Hello

You seem to be really struggling at the moment and I can see you have made a Doctors appointment and with every bit of strength you have you need to keep it but if things are so bad you can't you need a home visit and would be entitled to ask for one

As well as people supporting the best they can on here it sounds like you need some outside support to , could your parents , friends , BF possibly help in any way even if they don't understand be there for you or it could be if you are this bad that your Doctor will refer you to a Mental Health Team , this would be a big help as there would be a line of support & communication there for you that could be used most times of the day or night and people can talk you through things or even come out to see you if you are so bad I would ask my Doctor or tell them I need this support , it can be hard when we suffer with anxiety to ask but if we don't we won't get so we have to , maybe you could take someone with you that knows how bad you have been so they could speak up for you to

Good Luck and speak out at your appointment you have nothing to loose but everything to gain x

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I just wrote a whole reply to you bounce but I accidently somehow deleted it... Bare with I will re write it now.

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I am so anxious and scared today that even to lift my head off the pillow is too much for me. I already see a therapist but stopped seeing her when I thought my issues were resolved and it is then I came off citalopram aswell. two weeks ago I am unsure what but something triggered my anxiety and it spiralled very quickly so I then started the citalporam again after going to the doctors. My partner works away and my mum and dad are far less than supportive. My dad ignores it/me (we have never had the best relationship) and Only yesterday I overheard my mum saying she cant be doing with me and the sooner I am out the better. This past week I have been in my room alone and not once have they come in to see me, nor given me hug, nor told me that they love me. Just simply ignored that I am here. Maybe that is how they deal with it but to me it just seems I am not a priority. My partner is home today, this afternoon, but the way I am feeling I am worried because I have n love to give at the moment I am so wrapped up in fear I am scared to have him home. I literally just want to hide away.

on top of things I havent eaten properly in a week, I have been very bad with eating in fact, but this is because I asked my parents to please just put some food in the fridge that I can eat because no one is ever in and I find it hard to get up let alone get to the shops. They didnt do that so I have had no food. My parents also live in a pigsty. The kitchen is filthy, when I do try to even get something as simple as a bowl of cereal there are dishes and crap everywhere and nothing is even clean to simply grab a spoon and a bowl and eat.This is the same for all the other rooms in the house, so I have been trapped in my room for all this time because there is no other room in the house to be. so now all I know is these four walls.

I feel sick to death right now. :(

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Hello

Things sound like they have got really messy which won't be helping you at all

You say you are not sure why or where you anxiety has triggered from this time but you spoke the other day in a post this bout came on after you had been out drinking which was suggested with drink it can do this , however what has brought it on at the moment is irrelevant I think the main issue is how you are going to help yourself and no matter what it takes , vanity to one side on how you may look you need to get to that Doctors and tell them all this , I feel this is the best way you can get the support that you seem to really be in need of and you have nothing to feel ashamed of

I hope you will make the appointment and tell all including how life is at home , if we only give them half the picture we only get half the support if you know what I mean

Good Luck x

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Am assuming your mam and dad ain't supportive rose that's so sad. I'm really sorry your feeling so down my mam crystal for me wish makes me alot worse. I'm in the same situating with ya hun I'm here to talk please take care you need some one with you to support you hunny x

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Thanks were, my partner chris is finally home today after 6 weeks. I hope it gets better from here.

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Or that's good news I hope so to hunny x

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My names tanya lol x but I don't no how to change were ha ha x

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I've been suffering for the last few months with anxiety and panic attacks and it's awful. Cant go to work at the moment and struggle to leave the house. The doc increased my citalopram to 30mg but I feel worse so now they are asking me to reduce that and change to sertraline, which is scary me. I try so hard everyday to act normal and not let people see how I really feel which is so draining x

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Lizzo I know exactly how you feel. I can barely get out of bed at the moment, apart from things like the going to the toilet which I have to do. What are your symptoms at the minute? do you have much support? xxxx

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My worst symptoms are either heart racing or feels like it's stopped, dizziness where I comstant feel like in going to pass out. I have very little support and cry a lot, apart from when I have my 2 children as I try and hide it from them as much as I can. My gran passed away in October and she was my rock, she was just like my mam. The docs think that's why I'm worse at the moment. Xx

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Oh hunny. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. it must be hard trying to be strong infront of your children. do you live alone? How old are you if you dont mind me asking? xxx

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Just turned 40, yes I live alone. I broke up with my husband 2 yrs ago and have joint custody of our children. How old are you? Do u have much support? Xx

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I'm 25. No no support from my parents at all, they have treated me like crap these past few weeks. I feel like I'm grieving for my family in a way becuase although they are my family biologically I feel no love or support from them at all. It is so hard isnt it? I cry a lot too this doesnt make us weak, we are only human xx

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Do you take medication? xx

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Yes I take citalopram at the moment, but they are changing me to sertraline. It's sad that it family don't support u, anxiety and panic is awful. Xx

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how long have you been on the citalopram? do you just not feel like it is working for you? Yeah it is horrible but it is what it is. I am on weeks 2 and a half on citalopram and my anxiety is bloody awful... last night was my first two panic attacks that actually woke me up. just horrible!!! how are you doing today? xxx

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It just makes me so angry that we anxiety sufferers are mostly left to our own devices to deal with this overwhelming illness! People suggest therapy, drugs, meditation but they are not magic cures..more like crutches. Scientists need to study mental illness and get better treatments. Meanwhile - we blame ourselves for our suffering! Be strong - that is my only advice. Never give up!

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I started on citalopram 10 yrs ago when I started with panic attacks, they've been pretty much under control till sept this yr, I was already on citalopram 10mg so they upped it to 20mgs then 30mgs. Been on 30mgs for the last 5 weeks and still feel terrible, that's why they have decided to change me to sertraline. Hoping it works. Xx

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Tbh it happens to me all the time. Getting a fresh breath of air and going outside is a 100% cure. Feeling the wind and inhaling air is the cure for me. 💨🍃

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Talk to your primary Doctor.....it is very frightening to feel so out of control and helpless.I have had the same feelings......it is the worst and I let it go a very long time.....it became so unbearable

Suicide seemed to be the best option. I am now on two different medications ..... It is a new world!

You can not do this alone ,see your Dr ,share with those you trust ,how you are feeling ........f

PRAY

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Thanks for your response. it is good to know I am not the only one to feel like this or that has felt like this.I am so happy you made it through!! :) xxxx

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Hi rose are you ok hunny? Is Chris back to make you happy xx

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hey beaut! he is back :) im not out of the woods yet but atleast my boy is home!!! he is konked out asleep bless him, he has been on three flights to get home today!! how are you lovely? okay I hope? xx

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Or bless him that's a bit much. And I'm fine today felt a bit dizzy But I'm OK I'm watching a film with me little man lol the joys of motherhood hope your ok to hunny xx

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How you going today Hun?

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