I'm 21 and have suffered from depression and anxiety resulting in self harm since I was 10. Been through years of counciling and antidepressants. Been on about 7 different antidepressants which all made me feel sick and couldn't carry on feeling worse than I already felt. Counciling helped for a few years then just stopped helping. My mum thought a blog would help as most of you will understand how I'm feeling. My family and boyfriend are so supportive, but have never been through any of this so its hard for them to help me. I feel like I'm just living for no purpose? I don't have any friends, hobbies nothing that helps me get out of these ruts. I was getting better but when I was 18 I was sexually assaulted, after this it brought me back to square one, it's something I can't get over? Seeing a program on tv about rape, a news story, or people talking about it. My day to day life seems to remind me everyday about what happened. I feel like the world is against me I'll be having a good day and then something bad happens and seems to be one thing after another. My grandad died of cancer then my grandma died a few weeks later, I was in a car accident which I was thankful I wasn't seriously hurt, surgery for endometriosis, my grandmas an alcoholic and my boyfriend seems to be moving on with his life and I'm stuck here. I know a lot of people have bigger problems than I do but every small thing seems to bring me down. I have a few questions I want to ask you, what drugs, natural remedies or techniques helped you hope with getting through depression? How did you describe it to your loved ones? And when does the pain stop?